Friday, December 10, 2010

The Best Gifts of Christmas

Christmas to me is a lot more than just presents, cookies, Christmas trees, Christmas music and so on. To me Christmas is a lot of things that cannot be wrapped, measured or weighed. Instead of creating my thankful list today, I am going to create my list of what is really important to me at Christmas. Of course I am eternally grateful for everything on it.

1. time with family and friends
2. the smell of the season; cookies baking, the tree, holiday candles burning, etc.
3. the smiles on children, especially my own when the see a beautiful Christmas tree, when they 'purchase' or handmake a gift for their loved ones, when Frosty the Snowman is on TV, when they are sprinkling cut out cookies with tons of colored sugar, when they sing aloud the songs of the season.
4. hosting parties and laughing with the girls, drinking wine, trying on jewelry, smelling candles, playing games and eating way too many sweets.
5. handmaking Christmas cards
6. the kids running down the stairs to see what Santa brought
7. candle light service at church on Christmas Eve
8. memories of when I was a child at Christmas
9. hot chocolate with marshmallows and maybe even a little Baily's
10. Makenna talking about how it will soon be Jesus birthday and her excitement being Mary in her school play.
11. baking cookies with Makenna
12. my mom and She-She baking Christmas cookies every year with the kids.
13. giving my mom an early Christmas present every Christmas Eve.
14. all the holiday children's movies.
15. giving to charities, homeless shelters and anyone less fortunate than myself.
16. the excitement of the kids when they open their advent calendars every morning from my mom. They play a guessing game and try to guess what it is.
17. red nail polish on my toes
18. Christmas Books; The Grinch, The Polar Express, The Night Before Christmas and more.
19. nativities
20. Amy Grant and Michael W. Smith's Christmas CDs
21. sea shells hanging on the Christmas tree with a starfish on top.
22. handmade gifts
23. two red cardinals
24. going shopping with my dad
25. enjoying my dads birthday right before Christmas
26. grateful people
27. candy canes, which I do not eat...LOL!
28. Moose Munch which I will hopefully get this year in my stocking...LOL!
29. the trill of finding the perfect gift.
30. the thrill of finding a GREAT sale!
31. decorating the tree with the kids.
32. Makenna in her Christmas dress.....(dresses)
33. pictures of the kids and the family together.
34. decorating the house.
35. holiday traditions.
36. Chloe thinking the tree is hers.
37. stockings being hung.
38. Silent Night
39. candles
40. the birth of our Savior.
41. being blessed with the people I have in my life.
42. being truly grateful for all that I have.
43. signs from above.

There are so many more....but I am out of time. Dinner needs to be made, laundry needs to be switched over, presents should be wrapped, and PartyLite should be gone through. I am very excited about tomorrow night with our Christmas party at work. I am so thankful for everyone who has helped make this past year a wonderful year. Blessings to all.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

A Time I will Never Forget

During my trying teenage years, back in the mid to later 80's times were not as they are now. However, they were similar with the bullying, the peer pressure, drugs, alcohol, kids skipping school, etc. What do kids do today to stay away from all the negativity?

Fortunately for me, my church had a wonderful group of kids that was brought together by a woman named Kim. We formed a group called Animation. Fortunately my parents made me spend time at my church in order to become a part of this group. Animation was a group of about 15-20 children ages ranging from 14-18. We had fellowship, spent time on retreats, went to concerts, but mostly spent time rehearsing for plays that were written and choreographed by Kim. There were probably about 4 or 5 different plays, 2 in which I was in. Druzba and Smashed were the ones I was in. Druzba is the one I do not remember as well. I do remember playing an angel at one point and that the play was based in Russia at Christmas time.

Smashed is the one I remember most. I remember the relationships that Kim had paired us up in. One person was handicap, I was in a relationship with someone much older than me, and it was to show that God accepts everyone in any condition and we should too. I remember one of the cast members played the part of an alcoholic who got into a car accident from drunk driving and killed a best friend. He wanted to turn to the devil. With the help of all of his friends supporting him during this tragic time, he found God. He became sober and healed from his tragic loss.

Kim now has a Christan Drama School in New Jersey. It is amazing to me to know that Animation is what started her on the road to her lifetime career. Although she was not with us last night, I know she was there in spirit.

Talking with everyone last night I finally had the chance to tell them what they did for me. It was each of them that kept me walking in God's light. It was them that helped me to make the right decisions and gave me the support I needed that I wasn't getting from the kids at school. It was Animation who made me feel accepted in a time where school did not. They loved me for who I was whether or not I had the in style clothing, the perfect hair (which God knows I didn't,,,,LOL!), the great grades, etc. Never once did I turn to drugs or alcohol or feel the need to skip school to be cool. I may have 'run away from home' a few times in the heat of a fight with my mom, but I always had Animation to run home to. I thank God for them. I thank God for giving us the time last night to be together once more.

You all know how I am about signs from the other side. We walked into the living room with intentions of getting pictures taken together. On the TV was a music channel. As soon as I turned the corner to go into the room, I hear Amy Grant. Her song Angels Watching Over Me was on. We immediately turned it up, started singing and dancing. I smiled to myself knowing that we were all where we were supposed to be. Our angles had brought us together and were celebrating with us the miracle of our never ending friendship.

What I am thankful for today:
Animation
my friends
my family
my kids
understanding
loyalty
laughter
memories
acceptance
love
my pets
The Center
the sunshine
rainbows
energy
time
music
Amy Grant
scrapbooking
my health
the health of my loved ones
my dad feeling better
Shawn
my bed
my home
my jeep
my store
full classes
heat
every minute I get to spend with the ones I love
A wondeful Thanksgiving day

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Ralph Stover Park & An Amazing Day

Here I am at work with 100000000000 things I should be doing instead of sitting here blogging BUT.....

Yesterday was amazing and I just had to write about it. Jennifer G took Makenna for most part of the day to play with Jessica so that Shawn and I could spend the day together for his birthday. Knowing my financial situation doesn't allow me much freedom right now, I made it clear that we had to be creative for his birthday this year. I have to laugh because he is such a laid back person who honestly lives happily with very little material things....so why I am so worried that I cannot spend money on him? I don't know.

A few days before his birthday he called me to tell me that he knows what he wants. All he wanted was to spend the day with me. Awww.... He knew that I had never visited Ralph Stover Park before and one thing we really enjoy together is hiking. We hiked for an hour and a half up and down this gorgeous mountain with a creek running at the bottom. He fished for a little but didn't get any bites. I managed to get some pictures which showed how high we were and some turkey buzzards that were in a tree near by. Although there was very little conversation we connected so much through the beauty of the surrounding nature.

On the way home we were starving. We stopped at this cute little restaurant called the Cactus Grill. We ate dinner in front of a window with a great view of the sunset. My order was Chicken & Spinach Ravioli which was to die for! When we arrived back at his house we ate chocolate cake and ice cream watching a marathon of the show The Haunted. Perfect ending to a great day....at least for us.

Many people do not know this but rainbows are a sign to me which meaning is that I am exactly where I am supposed to be at that moment. Music fits in with that as well. On our way to Ralph Stover, I saw about 3 different rainbows caused by reflections of the sun....they were not actually in the sky. I had to laugh to myself because I felt like I was were I needed to be. At Shelleys a couple of weeks ago, I walked into her home to see rainbows all over her wall, all created by a prism she had in her kitchen window. It actually took my breath away since Shelley and I both agree that God brought us together. When sitting having tea, Makenna looked up at Shelley and laughed. She said, "Shelley, you have a rainbow on your forehead!" I then told Shelley the meaning that rainbows have in my life. She smiled and mentioned that she felt that she was where she was supposed to be as well.

Do you have a sign? Think of one. It can be anything with any meaning. It will help you to realize that the path you are on is the right path, the one that God has chosen for you. I feel a sense of comfort when I see my rainbows. The last rainbow I saw in the sky was when I was on my way home from taking Gavin to the dentist. That horrifying trip that drained all of us to no end. The assistant told me how good I was and how patient I was with Gavin which was nice to hear when you doubting yourself....then to walk out and that rainbow be the first thing I see. I knew that God was smiling down on me letting me know everything will be alright. I was exactly where I was supposed to be, enduring an experience with Gavin which will help both of us grow. No one knows why we have to go through certain things....but there is something to learn from everything we encounter.

What I am thankful for today:
Jennifer G for taking Makenna for the day
Time spend with Shawn
My kids
My Pets
My friends
Quality time
Ralph Stover Park
Nature
Rainbows
Love
Laughter
Good food
Hot Tea
Chocolate cake
Appreciation
Silence
Dinner at church tonight
My PartyLite Party
The Secret Woman's Club tomorrow!!
Heat
My winter coat
Music
Full classes
My store
God
Answered prayers
Faith
My strength
My confidence
Motivation
Energy
My health
Knowing I am right where I should be

Saturday, November 13, 2010

Today & Tomorrow

Today was a great day. A woman from Lehigh Valley Marketplace Magazine came in and interviewed me. She is doing an article on Scrapbooking 101 and Googled scrapbooking stores near Easton and mine was one of the first to pop up! I know this will get me some great exposure. And, the woman is getting some friends together to take a class! YAY! Once she heard we do birthday parties, she instantly brought up her daughter. Potential birthday party scheduled? I think so!!

My Stampin Up workshop went very well. 3 new customers were in today. Each of them attended the vendor fair last weekend. With my hostes credit I am getting the stuff I need to make my Christmas Cards!!

Tonight Jeremy is out and I am already in bed at 9:30pm. Rooti kept me up last night....no wonder why she fell asleep with Makenna over an hour ago. Rooti is Cheryl's poodle. She is extremely cute...personality and all. I am now watching The Cutest Cat on Animal Planet. Makes me want to go to the shelter..LOL!

I am looking forward to church tomorrow. Lately I swear the sermons are meant for me. It amazes me that God puts us exactly where we need to be. Every week I walk out of there feeling confident and very relaxed. Never would I ever have thought that I would enjoy church so much, I am glad God lead me to New Jerusalem. The older Youth Group and I are planning on performing the church service on the 19th of December if anyone would like to come. We are going to base it on what we learned at the Listen to Jesus Retreat over the summer.

What I am thankful for today:
my children
my dads health
my friends
my family
my pets
my faith in God
water
candles
the shelter
Stampin Up free products!
new customers
loyal customers
my store
music
a great day tomorrow
time
healing
getting Christmas cards made
love
money
The Secret
Shawn
rainbows
flowers
hot tea
coffee
brownies
the gym
hope
laughter
girly time
my home

Sunday, November 7, 2010

Date Night and Stuff

Last night Shawn and I went on our first official date, TGI Fridays for dinner. Man is that Jack Daniel's chicken ROCKIN! Then the specialty drink was a Mud Slide.....I was all over that for dessert. We learned so much about each other because we were not consumed by the TV. It was nice to get out and actually enjoy food and conversation for a change. Love that they have a Gluten free menu. He was able to order almost everything that he would have on the regular menu.

The Vendor Fair was awesome yesterday. It was so nice to meet new people who seemed to be so excited about the store. And, I love my new purse. Look out ladies, a purse party is coming in the future!

As I look back I remember all the times that I had game night at my house. It had to be at least once a month. Sometimes we had 10-15 girls here. What made me get away from that? I really cannot put my finger on it. All I know is that I am so excited about getting back into it. You never realize how much your spirit feels healed when you laugh with friends.

It has been a long time since I have been sick. Lately I have been feeling tired...just a little. So I upped my vitamins and rest when I feel my body needs it. Yes, I actually sit down Diane. LOL! No, I do not nap. A lot of people including my kids have been sick lately. How am I staying away from it? It must be The Secret. I always picture myself healthy and always say how thankful I am for my health. This doesn't mean that I will never get sick again, but it has kept me healthy so far. With this time change, who knows what will happen. I was up at 5am this morning and feel ready for bed now, it's 7:40pm. Sleep is a huge factor in staying healthy. I am so thankful that my body keeps me sleeping soundly for 6-7 hours a night. I know this helps.

I am not sure what tonight has in store for me. Maybe some Bridezilla and cuddling with Mojo? I do know that I will not be awake late. Tomorrow is gym time. Maybe I can even hit the shelter. My little Birdy was adopted so I may be a little misty eyed when I go in the one room. At least my Alice is still there to greet me. Not sure what I will do if she is adopted. ) : Don't get me wrong, I am happy for them. It is very bittersweet. You fall in love with animals hoping that they find homes. But you miss them like crazy when they are gone. 'sigh'

What I am thankful for today:
the sermon at church this morning
Alice
my kids
my family
my friends
the shelter
quiet time
dinner with Shawn
Jack Daniels chicken and Mudslides
a warm bed
laughter
confidence
smiles
games
girls nights
my purse
vendor fairs
my pets
working out with Jennifer
Heather being a great friend and boss
my jobs
brownies
hoodies
peace
healing
prayer
money
my jeep
my store
classes
learning something new every day
creativity
imagination
hope
faith
believing in miracles
heat
Stampin Up!
Shawn
the beach
sleep
my health
ghost tours

Friday, November 5, 2010

Productive Week

What a week! It has been extremely productive and positive. I have been working extra hours at the gym, working out again, working at Sally's house to earn extra money, helping out at The Center, re-connecting with people and getting prepared for the Vendor Fair tomorrow in Quakertown. I realized that I enjoy cleaning and gardening when I am helping someone out and they are paying me...LOL! Bills are crazy right now with the store so all the extra income I can get is worth it. Besides it is Shawn's birthday coming up soon.

It feels good to work out. Thank you Jennifer for being my motivation (chocolate helps...LOL!). I have been told in the last couple of weeks by a few people that it looks like I have lost weight. YAY!! That gives me even more motivation to keep going!!

Shelley and I are working hand in hand to come up with a plan for a non-profit organization. We did find out that we can run it through my business. Erika and I are looking forward to this new venture with Shelley. Shelley is an amazing person. I am very blessed to know her.

It has been a great week. Good conversations with old friends really make a person realize where they need to be in life as well as where they came from. Rachel always reminds me of silly things we encountered years ago. She cracks me up. And Jamie is my soulmate so I really do not need to say anything more about that.

Although I am extremely busy.....now on the Shelter Cat and Pocket Pet committee at the shelter AND on the fundraising committe at church, I am starting to find a good balance. My kids and I are enjoying time at the shelter at night now which is good for Gavin since before he was unable to go. Things do have a way of working out. Patience is all we need. I know, easier said than done.

What I am thankful for today:
my life
my kids
time
the shelter
blending the things I love
girls night
my friends
my pets
Bliss chocolate
Logan (at the gym)
working out with Jennifer
my store
the vendor fair tomorrow
my health
the health of my loved ones
money
my future
finding Tetris on my phone (this could be bad)
laughter
love
french vanilla iced coffee
pizza (thank you Erika for dinner last night!)
a warm bed
Cheryl
Shawn
The Power

Monday, November 1, 2010

A Day to do Nothing?

Taking a day to do nothing feels so wrong to me. But I have decided that today, besides working on my meetup site and scheduling classes on facebook, and doing laundry I am just not going to rush to do much of anything. I tried to work on my website and Go Daddy is just not working today. Maybe I will get up the motivation to work on my newsletter. Just wish I had a decent picture of my class on Thursday before I did that. We will see.

This cold weather has me in a funk. This usually happens to me, Miss Summer. LOL! Gavin and I had a great time at the shelter on Saturday. We did have an upsetting experience when we got to the lower building though. We were completely mauled by cats when we walked in. I mean they were jumping on us and holding on with all claws. Something was not right. After a few moments of giving them attention then looking around to see the issues...it was apparent that these cats had not been given any water. Gavin turned on the sink and 10 cats jumped in. One cat drank so much water and ended up throwing it all up because she drank too much too fast. I was disappointed that these cats were left this way. Expressing my concerns, I know this matter will be dealt with and right away. If I had more time I would get to the shelter more often to help out. I know how hard it must e to take care of 450 cats. Now if we could only make more people aware of how important it is to spay and neuter their pets!?!?!?! The shelter will do the surgery, get them up to date on shots, and microchip them for only $75. Much cheaper than the vet.


I have to say that I am happy that Halloween is over. I am highly looking forward to Thanksgiving. Not sure how that is panning out yet since Jeremy and my family are both hosting something that they would like us to attend.

I have so much I could write about but do not know where to start. So, I am closing.

What I am thankful for today:

my friends
my children
Shawn
my pets
the shelter
being on the Shelter Cat & Pocket Pet Committee at The Center for Animal Health & Welfare
inspirations
playing games with my kids
pumpkin seeds
my store
hot tea
coffee
twix (ate three this morning)
the gym (see above)
taking classes with Jennifer G
Thankful Thursdays
my Avon Fairy
Thanksgiving
clean laundry
money
hope
faith
laughter
love
church
God
the power of prayer

Friday, October 22, 2010

A Good Day and A Awesome Weekend to Come

Today was such a good day! Makenna was feeling so much better by the early afternoon that Jen and I took her to The Center for Animal Health and Welfare. I love feeding the kittens! They meow like mad when they hear the cans being opened. We cleaned the rabbit cages which was funny because the one rabbit kept jumping back into his cage. Guess he didn't mind it being dirty. There have been lots of adoptions lately and it makes me so thrilled to know that these animals will have forever homes now. It is a bittersweet feeling though because we have established a bond with some of these cats and dogs. While I am happy that Alice and Birdy (two of my favorite felines) are still there, I know they would be happier in a home with someone who loves them. The thought of them leaving does make me sad though.

Tomorrow I am excited to teach a class at my store. It has been a while since I have taught one. I am highly looking forward to my Thankful Thursdays coming up in November. Jess Ballas has 9 people in her class so far!! I am so excited for her! Maybe some of them will stay for Jennifer's layout class!!??

Tomorrow night is what I am really looking forward too. I cannot wait to have most of my friends here with me at home. We are going to play games on the Wii and board games. Jennifer G is bringing calories in hopes that I go back to the gym with her this week...LOL! I have really missed going with Makenna being sick all week. Thankfully she is feeling better.

I am so thankful for my friends, so thankful for my furry friends and so thankful for my children. Makenna and I have had some wonderful bonding time this week. We read books, she helped me clean and cook, we played restaurant, and lots of other stuff. It was great! She really is a good kid, even when she isn't feeling well.

What I am thankful for today:
my friends....God am I lucky!
my kids
my pets
Birdy, Alice, Slipper, Ramona, Squeaky and all my other favorite felines
my health
chocolate
hot showers
fall
Makenna feeling better
Gavin getting good grades
quality time
my stationary bike (came in handy not being able to hit the gym)
an awesome weekend ahead
the parade
my classes
my customers
my store
heat
facebook
faith
loyalty
clean laundry
my home
my jeep
laughter
hope
love
music

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Healing Once Again

Just feeling like a huge scab was ripped off my life, I am preparing to heal once again. Why does life have to go the way it does sometimes? Why do we have to hurt others? Why do we have to be hurt? I know that we can only see our furture a few feet at a time. At this moment, I would like just one glimps of the entire picture. Maybe it would help me feel better, maybe it would give me more hope.

My mind and body got quickly pushed into protective mode. The one person I know would never hurt me, ended up feeling the brunt of my pain. It is like I am on Auto. I automaticly want to push people I care about away before they can hurt me. Shawn quickly reminded me that the fear of that is manifested in my own mind. He reminded me of how strong I am and how I chose to allow the hurt to continue or step on it like a scary spider and not allow it to get the best of me. While this is easier said than done, it is what I am going to try to do, squish it like the hairy, scary spider it is.

God is probably tired of hearing me cry and plead, "Take the pain away, keep me strong, give me the faith that I am lacking." In the middle of sobs I felt as though someone was hugging me, around my back. It was as if there were one or more presences trying to tell me I was not alone. While it made me feel a tiny bit better I was angry, sad, frustrated and still felt very alone. God was with me. I know he was. He was hearing me cry, he was trying to carry me through but I was too upset to let anything go. Here I am a couple of days later, feeling still the sting, but I feel better being reassured that I have tons of people who love and care about me. I have tons of people who would never hurt me, ever. It makes me see the light at the end of the tunnel. I may not have a clear path, but I am definitely ready to take on the challenges. My support is with me every step of the way. God bless my friends and Shawn for they are the glue that holds me together in times like these.

What I am thankful for today:
friends:
Heather
Jamie
Jen R
Erika
Jennifer G
Rachel
Melinda
Diane
Sally
Shelley
my children
Shawn
my health
my strength
creativity
God
hope
faith
the power of prayer
inspiration
laughter
a good time Saturday night
heat
chocolate
time
letting go
healing
energy
being able to run for 3 miles now
my jobs
animals
music
Amy Grant
my church
Linda (Jeremy's Mom)
forgiveness
positivity
love

Tuesday, October 12, 2010

Family, a Little Bragging, and Little Drops of Water

Today was a great day. I enjoyed being with Jeremy's family so much. Nana's funeral was nice, short and sweet. I feel that is how she would have wanted it. The luncheon was good. My mom helped me get everything out.....thank you mom! Linda's house had a lot of people in it! Nana was there hovering over the dessert trays...I could just feel her. LOL! I love that Jeremy's family still treats me like family. I feel like I will always be a huge part of my family. Linda let me pick out jewelry of Nana's, perfume, whatever I wanted. It really made me feel good that she included me in all of that. Wait until you see the ring I picked.....GORGEOUS!

I haven't bragged about Shawn lately so I am going to now. Ha Ha Ha! In the last two days he has been very huggy, holding my hands constantly, more affectionate that usual. He got up to go smoke a cigarette...something we are working on getting him away from, and I said "Why can't you be addicted to me, I am much more healthy." He smiled and said, "I am addicted, I admit it." Then when he dropped me off at home I asked him if he would be ok without me for an entire day...ya know being addicted and all, and he said, "Maybe for a few hours....but that is all." LOL! He came to visit me at the store on Sunday and surprised me with coffee. I didn't know he was even coming. He got the bird out the window...thank goodness......and told me twice in about 15 minutes that I was beautiful. Can you believe that I have known this man since 2nd grade? Can you believe that we started dating a year ago in July and he is still this way towards me? It is hard for me to digest since I am so used to things wearing off and dying down. It just confirms that we are great together. And that love can conquer all. Enough of the bragging....you are probably ready to puke now.

So, Erika and I have been pondering some awesome ideas. We are planning this fundraiser for Amanda Buss and I have been having major realizations. I realize my purpose in life.....my main purpose. I am definitely here to service people and do God's work but I have figured out in what way. I will continue to volunteer at the animal shelter but my main focus is organizing fundraisers. Erika and I are most likely going to do this together and anyone who wants to help can join us. We are looking into starting a non-profit organization, one that specializes in fundraisers. Of course we are keeping the store. Our name will be Little Drops of Water. And the story behind that is, at church on Sunday Pastor Tricia said that we have to picture ourselves as little drops of water. Each of us has a special talent that if we put our talents together we can make great things happen. So, all of us drops of water together can fill an entire bucket. If you would like to be a drop in our bucket, please let us know. You do not need to commit to every single fundraiser but can help out where you wish. We have yet to pick a date for the fundraiser but will keep you posted. Maybe you should take the time and write a list of all the things you enjoy doing and are good at. This will help you figure out how you can help us.

What I am thankful for today:
Jeremy's family
my mom
my family
my children
my pets
my friends
my church
the animal shelter
making my dreams come alive
the ability to help others
meditation
time
a good nights sleep
The Biggest Loser
getting my tooth fixed tomorrow
taking another aerobics class with Jennifer tomorrow
Nana being at peace
my home
my jeep
the ring Linda gave me
laughter
hope
money
friendship
patience
Shawn
my weight loss
love

Sunday, October 10, 2010

Ramblings for today

In my last posting I mentioned how exhausted I was...... Today I am emotionally exhausted. It took Linda and I 6 hours to create two picture boards for Nana's funeral. I came to work at 10am and worked until 9:30pm last night. I managed to get over 50 thank you post cards created before she got here at 3pm. So yes, I worked the entire time. The girls at my store and I are creating post cards to send out to the people who donate monetary gifts to The Center for Animal Health and Welfare. It takes a job off of them and allows us to be creative in helping them out.

Today, I have a bird in my store. He is nesting peacefully on the top of a wreath I have hanging ontop of the windows in my office. How the heck do I get him out? LOL! At least it is entertaining when he starts to fly around. Maryann said it is a gift I have, animals flock to me. May I remind people that I am not entirely a bird person??? LOL! I have my few choices that I like, Casey and Sunney....that is about it. They make me nervous.

Today, I feel blah. Linda and I cried last night together so my head hurts today. My spirit just doesn't feel right. Church was great this morning until they annouced their sympathy for Jeremy and my family. I balled....with no tissues....snot and tears everywhere. I wish I would have had more time to scrapbook with Nana. She just could not make it up my stairs. Because of mine and Linda's schedule it was hard for us to coordinate time for me to go down there and scrapbook. Maybe this is why I am so sad. I was really enjoying my time with her in the last year.

After I had heard of her passing, I prayed. You know me and my signs..... Of course I had asked Nana to show me a sign that she had crossed over and was ok. Within two hours of asking, she came through to me twice. Last night I told Linda that Nana was ok and how I knew. She tearfully thanked me for sharing that with her and was so grateful that Nana made it Home.

I am so blessed to have the gifts that God has given me. The gift to see signs from loved ones who have passed, connections to the spirit world, the feeling of spirits being with me. My grandfather seems to be the strongest. I feel him the most when I write. Like now....I know he is with me. It is this inner shaking, cold feeling that the biggest snowsuit would not make me warm. He promts me to write. He wants me to publish a book about my experiences with the spirit world. I am just not ready to tell the world of judgemental and critizing individuals. My strength to not care what they think has got to be hardened. I have come a long way. Lets just say that I know the people I can talk too and I am so thankful for them.

What I am thankful for today is:
my experiences with 'the other side'
God
the people God has surrounded me with
patience
time
healing
love
laughter
inner peace
my children
my pets
my friends
my store
my creativity
inspirations
hope
faith
music
family
the gift of writing
energy
my health
The Healing Place
Linda M
Linda B
knowing Nana is in a better place
The Farmers Market next Sunday
Shelley

Saturday, October 2, 2010

What is 'It'?

One word sums up how I am feeling right now, exhausted. Although I am thrilled that we managed to raise $1,340 for the New Jerusalem Fundraiser today, it was a lot of hard work. I am sure everyone who participated is feeling the same way. It was so worth it though. Shani and I were so blessed to have so many people help us. A huge thank you to everyone who was a part of the event. We could not have made it happen without you.

In talking Youth Group talk today with some members of the church and my mom, I came up with some solutions to my constant feeling of banging my head against the wall when it comes to getting everyone together. The kids do not want to learn any more bible verses, nor do they want to sit around and talk about God. Not that I believe that Youth Group is all about that, I think it is important to get together with reasons of learning Gods way. Right? Times have changed since my youth group and I want to keep up with the current trends of getting extremely busy kids together. However, it has been a struggle since day one. I get that kids learn about God through church, Sunday School, Confirmation Class, etc. So how does a Youth Leader be a Youth Leader without feeling that I am getting kids together for a play date?

The community service at The Center for Animal Health and Welfare was such a hit with those who went. The children worked because they wanted too. They experienced things they have never seen. They felt love like they have never felt. My mom pointed out to me that these kids were getting a message. My mom totally acknowledged what 'it' is all about. 'It' is about doing for others. 'It' is about doing service for others, helping others, making other's lives easier. 'It' is about living God's way and spreading it to others just as Jesus did. 'It' is coming together as a community, a whole, and preforming God's work. Now the answer to what 'it' is, is life.

So, while we may have fun outings going bowling, to Dorney Park, camping...etc, we will be engaging in a lot of other wonderful experiences subjecting the children to things they have never seen. We will be helping out at a local soup kitchen, donating items to Safe Harbor Homeless Shelter, engaging in fundraisers for various charities and getting these kids educated on life, all aspects of it and how we can all help. As these kids grow up, they will figure out what matters to them most and help in the area they feel the most passion for. Just as I feel the most passion for animals. This doesn't mean that I will not help with other charities or events, just that my passion is greatest for God's wonderful furry creatures.

My challenge for you is to do God's work at least once a day. Make someone elses life easier by lending a helping hand. Could be as easy as helping someone carry their groceries to lending someone $20. Could be just a smile offered to help cheer someone up. Let everyone see God shine through you. Show them what wonderful things He can do. Be the messenger and show everyone what 'it' is all about.

What I am thankful for today:
How awesome our fundraiser was
all the help we received
Shani
Erika
Maryann
my Mom
Jennifer G for her amazing baked goods!!!!
everyone who donated something
Cindy
Pauli
Charles
Kayla
my bed
my niece and nephew
my children
my pets
my friends
my family
my strength
my confidence
energy
sleep
my health
money
my Jeep
kindness
generosity
my church family
laughter
God
time
creativity
affection
my free oil change!! WHOO HOO!
PartyLite
Shawn (he is coming home tomorrow...YAY!)
Emma and Gunnar who just make my day
hope
faith
love

Friday, October 1, 2010

Ramblings for today

I am very excited about the fundraiser tomorrow. Shani and I worked hard at the church and Erika and I worked hard in the rain. Erika and I loaded the cars yesterday in the pouring rain. I know, what were we thinking? At least it got done. Hopefully we have a great turn out. We have over 65 baskets!

Tonight I am missing my man. He decided to go on a fishing/kayaking/camping trip up in the Promise Land near the Poconos. So, I am watching Ghost Adventures all by myself. I tried to get Gavin into it and he cannot get over his fear of the unknown. Shawn and I have our shows that we watch late at night...when we can. Watching it without him is just weird. I am so glad he had the chance to go away. All summer he was upset at his lack of liesure activities. He was able to get two of his friends to go with him and go for an entire weekend. He called me tonight to tell me that he was all set up, ate some good burgers on the fire, and is excited about kayaking all day tomorrow. He really needed this. And, it makes us appreciate each other even more. Absence does make the heart grow fonder....even when you think you can't get any fonder of someone.

Tonight I am praying for all those people who had their basement flooded because of all the rain. Although the rain was well needed, it didn't need to ruin houses and people's important stuff. May they get everything cleaned out soon and prepare themselves for future flood issues.

Despite my crazy day of rain, kids, getting the church ready for tomorrow, cleaning out a hoarders car (ask me later), dinner with my brother and his kids, then a sleep over with my niece and nephew....it was a pretty good day. I am glad it is over though. It is all in your attitude. Smile through the tears, dance in the rain, laugh a lot, don't sweat the small stuff, eat some chocolate and all will be fine at the end of the day.

What I am thankful for today:
time I get to spend with Shawn (even if it isn't much)
my children
my friends
my family
my church
sleep overs
Italian hogies
a great day tomorrow
sleep
a dry basement
fall
laughter
a sign from Mimi today
The Center for Animal Health and Welfare
Amy Grant
memories
smiles
hope
mums
love
free massages
hugs
kisses
my store
my furry friends
my pets
my man

Saturday, September 25, 2010

How to Give Thanks During a Stressful Time

I had a stressful week....actually month. Between chipping my tooth, getting a $400 electric bill, Pouncer with his diabetes then running away, brakes on my car needing to be replaced, and then issues with Chloe I just wanted to run away. After the storm calmed down I sat and tried to figure out what good came out of all of this. What it comes down to is that I realized how much people really care for me. So what if I look like I belong at the Q-Mart? LOL! My tooth will be fixed on the 14th of October.

On Agape's CD there is a song called Rejoice. Near the end of the song he sings, "Let us give thanks in all circumstances." When you feel like the world is crashing down on you, how do you give thanks? Taking some alone time, I prayed. I prayed that God helped me think of what I have to be thankful for during all this mess. I analyzed each situation: I didn't care for my left front tooth all that much so maybe chipping it and getting it re-done will make it look better? My electric bill just pushes me to look for a better building even more....which will help with location. It also pushed Erika and I on to getting eclectic turned off on the circuit breaker that we were not using. Pouncer....well I learned that I CAN give shots and take care of something I care about even if it means learning to do something I never thought I could. Him running away made me realize how many people care about Pounce and me. I think all of Hellertown was searching for him. Plus it made me realize even more how much Shawn cares for me. The entire day he walked up and down the alley behind the store, calling Pounce, talking to everyone he saw outside, walking the creek.....doing all he could to find my cat. He was supposed to be working but could not focus on anything with me being so upset. Jen R and Erika were as equally upset as I which showed their care and concern towards me.

Chloe's illness made me realize that I do have people who recognize all I do for them. The Center for Animal Health and Welfare offered to take care of Chloe so that I would not encounter a huge vet bill. The Center does not take any animals outside of the shelter for vet visits or surgery. But because they recognize all I do for them, they want me to bring all of my pets there from now on. It makes me feel appreciated. Not everyone gets to see how much we do for others and that is ok. Most of the time I like it when I am not recognized and can stay behind the scenes. Never would I expect anything in return, this is not why I do what I do.

What it comes down to is that God has surrounded me with amazing people. He makes sure that I know I am not alone in any situation. He gave me friends that feel my sadness and hold my hand during tough situations. They also cheer me on and celebrate with me the happy times. God gave me Shawn who never gives up and keeps me motivated to keep going. He had so much faith that we would find Pouncer and kept telling me that he was not giving up until we did. Shawn showed me that I am the most important thing to him and that when I am sad, his heart is heavy. My family was all praying for us, neighbors were praying, Makenna's teachers were praying, and finding Pouncer just shows me that prayers ARE answered. The more people who pray about the same thing, the faster the prayer is answered. Thank you to everyone who prayed for Pouncers return and for me and my kids.

I am so blessed to have many people that I can lean on. They are strong when I am weak. I am so thankful that God has enabled me to find the good in these situations. My jeeps brakes, well I was not ever in an accident and now my brakes work better than ever. So I am thankful for new brakes and that God kept me safe when they were not working. And thanks to my dad, I did not have to pay a mechanic to fix them. Focus on the good. That is all I can say. I have a roof over my head, food in my fridge, a jeep to drive, clothes to wear, healthy kids, I am healthy,  I have a job, I have an over abundance of friends, I have an amazing relationship with Shawn, my pets love me unconditionally, I can see, I can hear, I can speak, I can run....I am free, I am beautiful and I am very much loved by many. Praise the Lord.

The other things I am thankful for today:
My time at The Center with my friends and my youth group
Birdy
Squeaky
Ramona
Alice
Hettie
and all my other favorite furry kitty friends
the power of prayer
money
time
the rain
the sunshine
yodels
painted toes
sleep
laughter
love
hope
faith
knowing my treasures await for me in Heaven and that no earthly treasures will be as wonderful.
blue and purple
support
confidence
non-judgemental people
Agape
the quote: Keep your nose out of people's business or their business will stay on your nose. ~The Power
inspirations
creativity
a heart full of love
God

Monday, September 20, 2010

Agape and the Treadmill of Life

Yesterday was an awesome day with my children. We went to see Agape at a local church. He is amazing. Not only do the words of his music inspire me but his stories touch me in a way that I could listen to him all day long. Gavin was so interested in everything David said. My niece and nephew had a great time dancing with my kids and I, to his music. Thank you to Jennifer, Sally and Erika for watching my store so that I could be with my kids. We really had a great time.

So I got this fortune cookie that read: If you do what you have always done, you will get what you've always gotten. The meaning to me is that if we look at our lives as one big circle of events, good or bad, which ever of the two it is, it is because of choices we have made. If we choose to be mean, act jealous, not be wise with our money, be negative, whatever....we will always come in contact with mean people, feel worthlessness, be broke or bouncing a check, and get negative things in your life. If you choose to be giving and friendly, wise with our money, confident in ourselves and as positive as possible, then we will get more happy people in our lives, feel content and worthy, be wealthy in our bank account and in our hearts.

Why do people continue to stay the same if they do not like what comes to them or if they are so miserable in their life? If they have not learned the lesson it will come back around. In The Secret they call this 'the treadmill of life'. We can choose to get off this treadmill and make a better choice for ourselves. However, most people are so used to their life being this way, afraid to change, or rather wait for something good to just happen to them to change things. We are the ones who have to make the change.

Our past and our upbringing has a lot to do with why we are molded into who we are but remember that this belief system was instilled in us....it isn't necessarily how we HAVE to be. We chose to react to situations they way we do, we chose to be happy or sad, we chose to open the door for someone or just ignore them completely. There is a way to change everything. How do we do this? Start by changing your thoughts into thoughts of love. If you focus on love, then the things you do not love do not seem so important. Start giving without expecting anything in return. Treat people the way you want to be treated. And, remember that God loves everyone.....even those people you cannot stand...a quote from Agape. Prayer also helps. Ask God to guide you and listen. Our lives will only feel like one big circle of events if we decide not to change our decisions and/or the way we think. We are in charge of our lives.

What I am thankful for today:
time with my kids yesterday
The Agape concert
friends
my children
my pets
my family
lunch with Jennifer and Jessica today
the animal shelter with my youth group this Saturday
creativity
laughter
HIS blog
my store
Chloe healing
sleep
the sunshine
my favorite TV shows
the gym
the upcoming fundraiser
contentment
confidence
motivation
love

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

A New Song & A Peaceful Sign

There is a new song that is out now that really sticks out when I hear it. After looking it up and finding the lyrics, I know why. Shawn has told me almost everything that these lyrics say. It is as if he wrote the song himself. He tells me that I am beautiful and clarifies that it is not just outter beauty. When he is complimenting the way I look he says, "You look nice today". When he is complimenting me as a whole, he says, "You are beautiful." Sometimes he will say something about little aspects of me like my smile, my hair, how soft my skin is and so on. He says that the room lights up when I walk into it. The thing I love is how heartfelt he is. When he says stuff like this it is random, sparatic, and said with his heart, not his mouth. His face changes, his eyes seem deep. It melts me when he compliments me because I can honestly tell that he means it. When you get the chance, look up the song on Youtube. It is called Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars.

Today I had a very rushed and what could have been an extremely stressful day. Erika helped me put things into perspective on the phone in the middle of it but then I found myself driving and feeling very tense. This will all change on Thursday when I go to The Healing Place. Anyway, in my travels during the traffic and headache that was starting, I took a deep breath and said a quick prayer. It was very simple....something like, "God please take this stress off of me and get me through the day." I had to stop at a light only to look at the bumper sticker on the car in front of me that read "Be in Peace" Well I knew that God answered prayers but never realized how quickly at times....LOL! I felt this sense of calmness. I knew that everything was going to be fine. Normally I would call Shawn and say, "Honey I need a quick 'talk'." I would tell him what my issue was and he would respond, "Just do what you have to do, you will be fine, you always are." He has so much more confidence in me that I have in myself. I could not call him today because he has been putting in extra hours at his part time job which has no cell phone service.

I realized that at times like these, a quick prayer is all we need. We are not alone. God wants us to feel peace. We are here to be happy and successful, not to struggle. So if you ever are in need of a friend, do not forget that while you may not get one on the phone, the most important one is only a prayer away and is always listening.

What I am thankful for today:
the power of prayer
calmness
my friends
my family
Shawn
my kids
my pets
signs that come from above in so many different ways
God
my bed
a roof over my head
my jeep
compliments
feeling beautiful
the blue sky
Michelle and all the girls from the store that came and got their pictures taken tonight
Judy for watching the store
Erika
Jamie
Rachel (my Avon Fairy)
laughter
hope
peace
faith
love

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Almost reaching a Goal

Well I did it. I got on the scale. The moms in the locker room were asking me why I would do such a thing....LOL! I should have told them that Heather wanted me to make sure it works.....HA HA HA! Obviously it doesn't get used much.

It has been over two months since I have weighed myself. Not having a regular workout routine is one of the reasons why I waited. Recently putting on clothes that I dared to try on in earlier months, I have noticed that things are either better fitting or just way too big. Of course getting on the scale was not a scary event once I had this realization. I have my goal weight in my head, maybe it is too low, but I am going to see how close I can get. Last time I weighed myself I was 142 lbs. According to my age, height and body structure that is 6 pounds overweight for me. I should fall into the 116-136 range. I had a fitness analysis done a couple of years ago. I am very pleased to announce that the scale (it is the type at the doctors offices) said 133. YEAH! I am 1 pound away from hitting 10 pounds. And, I did this without a regular fitness routine. WHOO HOOO! Good-bye size 12.....good-bye size 10's.....I am a happy size 8 on my way to a size 6.

I will reach this size in no time once Makenna goes to school. I plan on making myself have a steady fitness routine even if I exercise at home for 20 minutes a day. Were you aware that Jennifer Aniston, a person I truly admire, keeps her body the way she does by simply exercising 20 minutes a day? She will run, do yoga, aerobics, weight training.....as long as it is something every day. I can do that! I work part time at a gym...I better be able to do 20 minutes.....LOL!

Right now I am feeling very good about myself. And what is nice is that I do not feel that losing the weight was much work at all. Shawn and I faithfully watch The Biggest Loser because it inspires us so much. Man do those trainers bust their butts! I am so thankful that I didn't have to work as hard as these contestants. When is that coming back on anyway?? Sometimes I feel like I need a Jillian in my life. LOL! She kicks major booty!

One of the things that I have to admit was that the thought of not being able to accomplish my goal with my weight was never an issue. Never once did I feel that I could not do it. It also helps to have support from those around me. The people telling me how good I look, Brad at the gym telling me "Damn girl...you keep going" while making silly poses with his biceps, Heather who will once in a very blue moon ask me to walk to the bank with her during our shift or after work when she comes to pick up Zachary. I do have a huge support team who is not nagging or degrading but very much into helping me achieve the goal I want to achieve.

 I received a fortune cookie the other night that read: Do not offer advice at the time of a crisis, offer assistance. While I do not believe that my weight was ever a crisis but maybe just an unwanted issue I had, my friends did exactly what the fortune cookie said. They offered assistance in any positive way that they caould. And, they continue to do so. All you have to do is tell people what you want and make sure it is the right people. There will be some that have to give their advice...unwanted of course. So make sure that your support team is actually supporting you and what you want rather than what they want for you. I am so grateful that I have this in every aspect of my life. God has surrounded me with wonderful people to be my teammates in life. What is wonderful is that we all help each other achieve our own goals and dreams. We want to see everyone happy and successful and we support them in any way we can.

What I am thankful for today:
my weight
my blog
my support team(s)
The Power
ratepoint.com
my children
my friends
my jeep
money
laughter
God
faith
hope
Shawn
facebook
meetup.com
my customers
my store
creativity
inspiration
chocolate
love

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Love is the highest frequency

While I was scrapbooking today, yes I actually MADE time, I was reflecting on my relationships with people. People from the past, people from the present. Some have come and gone, some have come back into my life and others have stayed away. Thinking about what I have been reading in The Power, I can clearly see why this happens.

Love is the highest frequency a person can be on. When we lose sight of love, we lack love. When we fight with people, complain about people and so on, we lack love. While this is happening we may lose people because we no longer feel love for them....and visa versa. There are people in my life who I absolutely love, always have and always will, whether it is family or friend or Shawn. My relationships with these people work and work well because of the love we feel for each other. Yes we have different opinions, different life styles, different interests..... but we do not allow that to affect the love we feel. And, because of the love we are able to communicate well and accept the differences in each other. We do not allow outside influences to affect our relationships nor do we judge or criticize each other in any way.

I have to brag, mainly because I feel like the luckiest person on earth. How many people do you know have so many amazing friends? How about the relationship with their partner? How about the relationship with their kids? I am truly blessed. My friends are the spice of my life. Jamie, my soul-mate who has always continued to love me no matter what even if she doesn't agree with me. Rachel who kills me with laughter with her dry sense of humor, is ALWAYS there whether we speak once a week or once a month. Melinda is my mouth...the person who taught me to speak up in any situation. Jen R. listens to me when I need an ear and has offered so much help. Erika has shown me that I do have a clone....LOL! How two people who are very much alike can get along so well, I will never know. Ha ha ha ha! Heather is my 'bring me back to reality' friend. She is so logical and so strong. She may not agree but she is. Then there is Jennifer G who makes me laugh and keeps me sane in childcare. Jill who amazes me with her words of wisdom, her patience and her kindness...she gets it from her mom. Diane is the best neighbor anyone could ever ask for. She worries about me more than she needs to but I love her for it. And to think that these are only a few of the wonderful friends I have been blessed with.

Then there is Shawn. Mr. Humble Bumble. The one who makes me feel beautiful when I feel at my worst. He may not say things often to sweep me off my feet but he really doesn't have too. His patience, his kindness, his actions and his love for me make me feel like I am flying. The way he talks to me, so soft spoken, so honest, so caring and understanding, I never thought a man could be that way....at least all of the time. Then his creativity, his imagination, his goals...ahhh...he amazes me every single day. He has a passion for learning and growing in every aspect of life. Yes he gives me backrubs without me asking, he is always holding my hand, he is always complimenting me....and I do the same for him. The man even enjoys cleaning..??? We do have a lot in common but we also have a lot of differences as well. We respect each other and our differences and find a way to compromise without arguing.

One thing I love about Shawn most is that he loves the simple things in life. He loves nature, animals, being outdoors, finding hidden treasures in the woods and in the sand, music, children, other people's creativity...just to name a few. He does not need much to make him happy. And, either do I. It is nice to know that we can be happy with very little material things. What makes it even better is that we feel like we have so much with what little we have. I feel like singing that Beatles song, "Love is all You Need".

The love I have for the wonderful people in my life is what keeps me on the Love Frequency. I focus on how much love I feel for everyone and I feel higher than a kite. "Love is not weak, feeble, or soft. Love is the positive force of life! Love is the cause of everything positive and good." The Power by Rhonda Byrne

What I am thankful for today:
My amazing friends and their everlasting friendships
My relationship with Shawn
My children
My family
Creativity
Imagination
God
The Secret
The Power
My pets
Animals
Music
Flowers
Rainbows
Waterfalls
Magical moments
Time
Peace
Hope
Faith
True Love

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

The Power of Love

In reading the new book called The Power I have had some major discoveries on why The Secret doesn't always seem to work in my life....and the lives of others. In The Power, it constantly reminds us that Love is the highest power. Love is the most positive power one can feel. When we are thinking about something or someone we love, we feel amazing, wonderful things happen in our lives and we feel like nothing can take that away from us. So then why do we still have bad days? Why do we still get into negative situations?

The answer is as simple as how fast we change our thoughts. One minute we are feeling love because we are laughing with our friends. In the next minute someone is complaining to you or you are complaining about something. When we are complaining, we are not feeling love. One minute we are hugging our loved ones, the next minute we realize our computer is slower than usual and it makes us frustrated. One minute we are driving without traffic feeling pretty good, then stumble upon a traffic jam and we don't feel too great. Our thoughts change so frequently throughout the day that the feeling of love is just as lacking as it is had. How can we change this? Is it possible to feel love every second of the day? Maybe it is for some people, but I have yet to experience that myself.

In The Power, what we can do when a bad situation happens that makes us lack the feeling of love is to immediately think of what we do love. It could be a picture of something that makes you feel good, or a situation that made you laugh. Maybe it is someone you love. It could be funny movie, getting lost in inspiring music or an inspirational book. It could be a simple phone call to a friend who will make you feel better. It could be day dreaming about the future, an event you have to look forward to. CHANGE YOUR THOUGHTS. Stop focusing on the situations where you are lacking love. You must feel love as much as possible to continue good things entering your life. Obviously it will take practice. There is so much negativity that we are all faced with each day from so many different outside influences. If we could consciously remember to fill ourselves up with love each time we feel lack, we would be so much better off. We could live more positively and be more of an inspiration to everyone around us.

I am so thankful that I have my 'support group'. My friends are always there ready to boost up my positivity. It helps when you have others to help you. When I say help, I mean get you out of your funk. Not gripe with you, and add to your already bad mood. Whoever said misery loves company is so right. Too bad we cannot get those miserable people on their own planet....LOL!

What I am thankful for today:
my support group
lack of negativity in my life
my children
my pets
my friends and family
people who choose to talk about positive situations rather than complain about negative ones
back rubs (without even asking)
my health
the health of my loved ones
money
God
food
a roof over my head
my store
my customers
creativity
inspiration
laughter
love
the power of prayer
music
Amy Grant
my jeep
my weight
the colors purple and blue
the sunshine
The Center for Animal Health & Welfare
church
Pastor Tricia
facebook
flowers
Cheryl
my bed
clean laundry
Shawn

Friday, August 13, 2010

Animals vs. People

My fundraiser for The Center for Animal Health and Welfare is tomorrow August 14th. My teachers and my friends all agree that this will be a wonderful successful event. There are so many businesses and people that have offered to help me and who have given donations. I feel so blessed to have so many giving people around me. I used to think that I liked helping animals because they were not as mean as people. They are not judgemental or criticizing and they love us no matter what. Animals allow us to be who we are and allow us to grow and change without advise, opinions, eyes rolling, sighing, gossip, etc. They only alter us in a loving caring way by showing their affection and by changing our moods to be happy, content and peaceful.

After this last year, my feelings have changed. With all the people I have met; customers, teachers, friends, I do see that people can be just as loving and caring as animals. As I lay here in my bed with my Chloe next to me, a very rare moment since she is always outdoors, I am appreciating all of Gods creations. I realize that I will not like everyone but I will appreciate them and love them. For God has a purpose for every person in our lives whether it be a lesson we need to learn or a lesson they need to learn, or someone to help us and make our lives easier. Seriously, if we were not surrounded by evil or things we do not agree with, how would we ever know how we want to be or not be. How would we know 'not to make that same mistake' as that person did? I try so hard to find the good in everyone whether I like them or not.

A couple words I live by:
Give: Give love, give thanks, give hope, give laughter, give compliments, give help, give time, give money.
Appreciate: Everything
Love: Everyone
Faith: have faith that God and the Universe will take care of you, if you
Believe.

What I am thankful for today:
everyone who has donated and offered their time for the Crafting For Paws Fundraiser
the wonderful people who have come into my life this past year
my 'dream team'
animals
people
my children
my pets
my friends
my family
Shawn
foot rubs
compliments
laughter
water
sunshine
butterflies
rainbows
music
The Center for Animal Health & Welfare
sleep
Ghost Hunters, Ghost Adventures, Celebrity Ghost Stories
Bridezilla (so funny!)
time
flowers
hope
faith
God
money
church
love

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Inspirations that just keep going..

My week ended last week with a retreat to West Chester University with the older youth group from my church. Besides listening to powerful inspirational stories, I found myself closer to God and learning what my purpose is here on earth. The kids were amazing, the food was amazing, the music was amazing....it was all so wonderful. My purpose is to help others....adults, children and animals. I do have this burning desire to make other people's lives better. So, with God's help I am going to pursue this.

My birthday was awesome. The girls at my store celebrated with me by buying me lunch and hanging out at my store. Shawn surprised me while I was there with a dozen roses. Erika made me a giant chocolate chip cookie.....so yummy. Later that night, Jeremy came home with Chinese food for dinner and my family came over for cake. It was a good time.

Yesterday, Jennifer took me to the Lilith Fair. We had a chance to see Missy Higgins, Sarah Borellis, The Court Yard Hounds and Sarah Mclachlan. Of course when Sarah played In the Arms of an Angel tears streamed down my face. It was definitely happy tears though. That song will forever remind me of my grandmothers passing. I know she was with me last night.

Tomorrow, Friday, Heather has surprised me with a trip to Longwood Gardens for my birthday. It is a place that has been on my goal sheet for about 2 years. Finally I am getting the chance to go and, take my children.

Everyone in my life has been so giving, so kind and very inspirational. This past week has been one of the best weeks of my life. I have accomplished some things on my goal list such as:
attending more concerts
getting a closer relationship with God
participating in a service project
seeing Sarah Mclachlan play In the Arms of an Angel
going to Longwood Gardens
spending more quality time with my friends
attaining new customers in my store

Life is good.

What I am thankful for today:
achieving my goals, big and small
the concert
the youth retreat
Agape
Rachel Kurtz
my friends
my family
celebrations
the couple who handed Jennifer and I tickets that got us off the lawn and only 15 rows from the stage!!
knowing what great things positive thinking can do to ones life
the youth group for being so wonderful!
my church
flowers
sunshine
learning what my spiritual gifts are
Shawn
Chinese food
ice cream cake
laughter
new music
old music
my children
time
laughter
hope
love
faith

Sunday, July 11, 2010

A Wonderful Day

Today was a wonderful day. At church my family and I became members, even though we already felt like we were. We wanted to make it official. Because I have committed myself to the Lord, I decided to reaffirm my faith by getting baptized. Almost everyone that I love deeply was there. Those who weren't were there in spirit. My Uncle sang a song for me in which I picked out of the hymnal. It is a song that I had never heard before until I attended the church. I am not sure why the song hits me like it does, it always brings tears to my eyes. It is called, I the Lord of Sand and Sea. When I hear the song, I picture myself singing it to the Lord. My calling is to spread the word of Him and to let his love shine through me onto everyone who comes into my life. What better person to sing it other than my Uncle? It was amazing.

After work today Shawn and I went for an hour and a half walk on this trail right here in Hellertown. It is along Saucon Creek. We walked in the creek, saw a few fish, and got a great work out. Our goal is to one day be able to run the entire trail. We have agreed to start running for 5 minutes at a time since neither of us enjoy running that much. I love that him and I set goals together, even if they seem small. He got me over my fear of the water when we went kayaking last weekend. There is something about lakes that I cannot see the bottom of. I used to have panic attacks at the thought of getting in a small boat and getting into the middle of the lake. When Jeremy and I went kayaking in Aruba it was different. I could see the bottom of the water AND we were on a double kayak. This time with Shawn, I was in my own kayak. Being that he is so relaxed, so patient and understanding, he was the best teacher. He took away my anxiety immediately. We started out gliding near the edge of the lake where the water is shallow. Then slowly, I managed to get myself all the way out in the middle of the lake like it was nothing. I cannot thank him enough for helping me get over one of my biggest fears. He really does help me in so many ways. Shawn has taught me patience. He has taught me not to sweat the small stuff. And, he is so genuine. He pays attention to detail constantly. If he sees me shivering, he covers me up before I even have a chance to say anything. If we are going on an outing, he always makes sure I have everything I need and gets it ready for me. One of the things I love about him is how grateful he is and how he makes sure I know it. I can honestly say that I even enjoy grocery shopping with him. We go in, get what we need and leave while making it a fun experience. Every once in a while he comes out with a compliment which is so random. He looks at me like no one else ever has. We really do compliment each other very well. I am so lucky to have him.

What I am thankful for today:
everyone who came and supported me and my family today
my children
my pets
quality time
getting to watch a movie with Gavin tonight
my family
my friends
the teachers at my store
my store
Shawn
patience
overcoming fears
kindness
gratitude
my church family
laughter
the power to change our lives
God
positive attitudes
loyalty
a good nights sleep
backrubs
compliments
goals
hope
faith
love

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Wow, it's been awhile!

So many times in the past few weeks I have wanted to get on here and blog. However, busy schedules and lack of free time have kept me from doing it. I figure, I have been on the computer all day working on stuff for the store, I may as well stay planted and write on my blog. Here I am!!

My life has been incredible in the past month pretty much in every aspect it. How lucky am I? Walking through Dollar General I was looking for markers for my store and happen to stumble across this book titled "Unlocking the Secrets to Living Your Dreams." I noticed that the two Authors were Authors in which were featured in The Secret, and decided to purchase it. There was only one there. Yep, it was obvious that I was in the right place and that book had my name ALL over it. I love that it breaks down The Secret and actually gives you questions to answer broken down in every aspect of ones life. Already I see a great improvement in most areas of my own life.

One of the ways you can achieve your dreams (without it feeling like work) is creating a team of people who want the same things as you do. Thankfully that was one thing I already had, without realizing it. All I had to do was spread the word. Erika and I have the same dream as far as our businesses go. The best thing is that we are totally on the same page, helping each other out in the areas that we are not willing or able to do well. She is now my retail buyer for the store and has taken that entire responsibility off of me. Jennifer G and I are on the same page as far as creating fundraisers to help out those in need. She also helps me come up with crop ideas and stepping up to the plate at the store when I cannot be there. Now there are lots more sharing my dream and the responsibilities of it which will be mentioned in other blogs. My 'dream team' came together before I even read this new book which stated it is the first step to being successful. How cool is that?

As well as business boosting, my personal life has improved greatly. My respect for Jeremy has totally increased. We really do get along well and thankfully parent the same way. It makes life easier since we have to live together for the time being.

Shawn and I have actually been able to spend quality time together for the first time. We went hiking at Glen Onoko Falls about an hour from Hellertown. I never realized how much I love hiking. I went once before (a long time ago) during fall, which was amazing, but this experience was different. It was nice to have someone who shares the same passions as I for nature, being outside, and taking in God's wonderful world. We could have sat there all day and just enjoyed the waterfalls. Being with Shawn is peaceful and that is the only way I can describe it in one word. He is the most humble person I have ever met.

In the spiritual aspect of my life I am totally complete. It is as if God took me by the hand and just ran with me. He has shown me a life of simplicity, peace, happiness and everlasting love. At this point in my life I could not ask for anything more. The best things in life are free.

What I am thankful for today:
every moment of my life
rainbows
sunshine
my children
my pets
The Center for Animal Health and Welfare
my store
my 'dream team'
nature
love
laughter
hugs
my church
my neighbors
my friends
creativity
time
energy
my health and the health of my loved ones
peace
hope
faith

Monday, June 14, 2010

God's Timing is Always Perfect

Last week I had a moment, ok a day, of wallowing in self pity....for less of a better phrase. I started off my day just tired and feeling very sluggish. It was a moment of trying to get myself to be positive when I really didn't feel like it. It was to me, work. Checking my email I find one from Jill who always asks me how things are. I was very honest with her although I do not like to complain, and told her I was having a rough morning. Her response was, "You have to check out this link: www.amysinsiteonlife.blogspot.com, It is very uplifting and the first couple of lines may even bring tears to your eyes." Have I mentioned how much I love this girl? I did go back and look at my blog and read my last entry. It did make me feel so much better. I am so thankful for her and her ability to snap me back into reality. I am so thankful that God brought her into my life.

Coming out of my funk, things progressively got better. More and more positive things kept coming into my life. Shelley from the Farmer's Market brought me a bouquet of flowers and a bracelet that said, You Are Love. We talked for a while and came to realize that we live very parallel lives. Another person I am so thankful for.

Erika and I came up with the idea of making her a Buyer for my store. She took off with the idea and will now be in charge of all the retail and everything that comes with it. Again, God brought someone into my life to make my life so much better. I am so thankful for Erika.

Then Jennifer G. knew that I wanted to focus on fundraisers at my store and took off with the idea. She sent out a bulk email to all of my teachers inquiring about hosting a fundraiser in August for the Animal Shelter that I volunteer at. Her ideas were amazing. And, just to know she took the time to do that for me when I never even asked.....amazing. Jennifer has been a great supporter of all I do, one of the cheerleaders that God brought to cheer me on and keep me going.

God's timing is perfect. No matter how impatient we are, there is a reason that things happen when they do. God does answer our prayers. He does bring people and circumstances into our lives that help us throughout our journey. But seriously, how many people acknowledge this? I try to look for everything good in every situation, even if I do not understand it or agree with it. I try to be aware of everything around me and all that I have to be thankful for. Jill, Shelley, Erika and Jennifer are only a few of the many cheerleaders I have in my life. And I am so thankful for each and every person that travels on my journey with me. We are here to help each other and make each others lives easier. I will support them in all they do on their journey just as they have for me.

What I am thankful for today:
the wonderful people who have been giving me donations for the shelter
friends
my cheerleaders
my children
my pets
my family
creativity
inspiration
God
patience
faith
hope
peace
love
confidence
Shawn
music
Ghost Hunters
Ghost Adventures
Losing it with Jillian
Bridezilla
the gym
my store
quality time
the power of prayer
my health
the sunshine
the beautiful flowers in my garden
my church family
signs from my loved ones who have passed away
my pets
my life

Sunday, May 30, 2010

Lots to talk about

Working at the gym on Friday a woman who I only worked with once, popped her head in and said, "I have a question for you. Do you live your life by The Secret?" Puzzled, shocked, and very confused, I said, "Well, I try to..LOL!" Then I asked her why on earth she asked me that (when I hardly know her). She works the front desk which is connected to the child care and apparently she has been watching me while I am there. She said that I am always smiling, always happy, energetic and she could not help but to notice. I remember reading in The Secret that when you live this way, it is contagious. I realized that this woman was feeding off of me. The next thing to come out of her mouth was, "I want to be that way." Tomorrow, I am taking her the book to borrow. I have seriously lost count on how many people I have touched with The Secret. Yes, there are some who get annoyed with 'happy people' and that is totally ok. Where once I believed that there was no way someone could always be happy, I now completely disagree. You choose your mood. And, the best thing is that we can change it. It takes practice but it does work. And, the ratio of people that are inspired by positive people is much greater than the people who are annoyed by them.

On another note, I am getting baptized this summer. Starting a new chapter in my life, I want to start renewed in my faith. God is the soul reason for the positive changes in my life. Now that I have turned to him for everything and made him the center of my every day living, the feeling of being completely whole has consumed me. This woman at the gym did not just see me as living The Secret, she sees me living life with God. People can see God through others. After a short conversation with her and realizing that she is not far from where I was a year ago, she said, "Man, God really does bring people into our lives at just the right time." I completely agree.

So, in this new chapter my store will be doing a number of different things to come. My children and I are becoming volunteers at the SPCA once a week in which I am attending the orientation this week. My Youth Group will be engaging in some community service, outings and lots of fellowship. I m helping with Vacation Bible School this year at church. I am attending the Listen To Jesus Youth Gathering in West Chester at the end of July. My friend Jennifer and I are going to an all day concert, which I have never been to. It is called the Lillith Fair. And, I will become a member of my church as well as being re-baptized. I cannot tell you how excited I am about this wonderful time in my life. Yes, it will be busy but I know it will be all worth it.

May God bless you with his presence just as he has with me. But remember, you have to be willing to let him in. It was a very long road for me when I didn't.

What I am thankful for today:
God
the power of prayer
my youth group
my children
my friends
my family
the sunshine
the farmer's market
my store
Pastor Tricia
my church
love
laughter
positive people
inspiration
the power to change your mood
flowers
hope
music
summer
my future

Friday, May 14, 2010

Had a great day

So, today was good. The gym was crowded with kids but two of them were so amazingly cute. Logan and Jessica were fighting for my lap. Ya gotta love the affection that kids show you.

After work, I went to watch Gavin run in the Fun Run at school. It was really hot but Gavin did great. He ran it in under 8 minutes. Then my mom took Makenna and I out to lunch at Subway. While at Subway I ran into so many people that I knew, customers, people from church, friends....it was really nice.

Because I didn't get much one on one time with my children on Mother's Day, tonight was my night to do what I wanted to do with my kids. So, Jeremy and I went to the Waffle House with the kids tonight. I know it is not a huge thing to go there, but it was just being with my kids, out of the house, without any interruptions. The kids put music on the jukebox that I like and we ate a really good meal.

So happy Mother's Day to me....today. I enjoyed today so much.

What I am thankful for today:
my children
the Waffle House
my friends
my mom
the gym
good food
my store
my teachers
my Youth Group
laughter
Makenna singing
Subway
hope
peace
love

Monday, May 10, 2010

What do you Visualize as Your Life?

How do you visualize yourself? Do you visualize yourself being miserable, feeling tired, driving a crappy car, working a job you hate? Ever wonder why you are where you are in life? What we visualize over and over becomes reality. Whether you know it or not OR like it or not, we are the reason why our lives are the way they are. We can sit and blame the past, our mentors, or situations which altered our lives. However, we are the ones who choose to deal with that whether it be in a negative way or a positive way. It can be comfortable to stay in a miserable situation because it is all we know. Yet, the entire time we stay where we are, we complain. The only one who can change us and where we are in our lives....is ourselves. Start with changing your attitude. Know that you deserve the best out of life. Appreciate what you do have. Surround yourself with positive people. Love everything and show everything and everyone how grateful you are. Visualize yourself with a better life....over and over again. Lastly, feel it. Feel the love, the gratitude, the joy of your NEW life. It will come true.

What I am thankful for today:
The Secret
signs from my loved ones who have passed
love
laughter
my children
my friends
Pampered Chef
appreciation
the wonderful people at my church
compliments
blushing moments
my health
the gym
time with the ones I love
energy
sleep
the sunshine
flowers
music
smiles
hugs

Sunday, May 2, 2010

Turn Your Mood Around

Turn your mood around by showing gratitude. What are you thankful for? Say it, feel it, and watch your mood completely change to be positive, inspired, appreciative and happy. Stop focusing on the negative issues and focus on only positive things. More positive things will come into your life as you do this. What is your thankful list?

I am so thankful for:
my neighbors
my children
my friends
my family
my store
my customers
my blogs
facebook
internet
email
my car
my pets
my clothing
PartyLite
Stampin Up!
Pampered Chef
my teachers
faith
love
inspiration
laughter
God
the power of prayer
my church
Youth Group
imagination
positive attitudes
open minds
smiles
hot showers
chocolate
music
The Biggest Loser
my part time job
flowers
sunsets
fresh air
my health and the health of my loved ones
happiness and the happiness of my loved ones
air conditioning
Mirror Images
Makenna's teachers
Pastor Tricia
scrapbooking
creativity
signs from above
time
quality time with the ones I love
quality time with me

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Keep on Keeping On!

April 21st—“Keep on Keeping On!”

“So, my dear brothers and sisters, be strong and immovable. Always work enthusiastically for the Lord, for you know that nothing you do for the Lord is ever useless.”
1 Corinthians 15:58

When you feel like quitting, “keep on keeping on” and you’ll get what runners call their second wind. That’s the power which propels them to the finish line and makes them winners. It’s why the Bible says, “Blessed is the mans who perseveres” (James 1:12 NIV).

Ever heard of Thomas Starzl? He became interested in organ transplants as a surgery resident in medical school. In 1958 he sewed new livers into dogs whose livers had been removed, but all of them died within two days of the operation. A year later he found a way to stabilize circulation, and the dogs lived for a week. In March 1963 he performed the first human liver transplant, but his patient bled to death. That failure, and the hepatitis epidemic that spread through artificial transplant centers worldwide during the 1960’s, forced his liver transplant program to be abandoned. But he refused to quit. In 1968 Starzl reported the results from new transplant trials. All seven children involved had survived, although four died within six months—an encouraging, but not stellar result. By 1975 only two liver transplant programs were left in the world. Twenty-three years after he first began, Starzl and his team found success: nineteen out of twenty-two patients lived for long periods. Starzl was criticized, even vilified by the medical establishment. But he persevered. And we should be glad he did. Today liver transplants are routinely performed around the world and people who had no hope are now living happy and productive lives. So, whatever your assignment, “Stand firm. Let nothing move you.”

If this doesn't motivate you to keep going, then something is wrong. Many times I have been getting ready to give up on so many things. Some small spark inside me says..."keep going." Maybe that spark is faith? Maybe it is hope? Not sure. Like The Secret says, we should consider our lives as if we were driving in a car at night time with the headlights on. We can only see the next 200 feet in front of us yet we can make it all the way to another state in the dark. If we have faith that we will get to where we want to be only being able to see little of what is ahead, we will make it to our destination. A light will be made a little at a time. We do not need to see the entire picture or know how...just know we will.

What I am thankful for today:
The Secret CDs which I am borrowing from a friend
my friends
a wonderful walk with Jamie and the kids last night
my children
my pets
my part-time job
inspired action
my health
the health and happiness of my loved ones
laughter
hope
faith
sleep
my appointment at The Healing Place
a clear mind
the sunshine
getting Pappy's flower beds done
music
smiles
love

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

SHOUT!

April 7th—Shout!

“It shall come to pass, when they make a long blast with the ram’s horn, and when you hear the sound of the trumpet, that all the people shall shout with a great shout; then the wall of the city will fall down flat. And the people shall go up every man straight before him.”
Joshua 6:5 NKJV

Are you fighting a battle you’re afraid you won’t win? Who are you depending on: God or yourself? When faced with the combined armies of Ammon, Moab, and Mount Seir, God told His people Israel, “The battle is not yours, but God’s (2 Ch. 20:15 NIV). And God’s never lost a battle yet! He told Joshua, “I have delivered Jericho into your hands” (Jos. 6:2 NIV). Notice, He didn’t say, “I will deliver” or “I might deliver.” No, He said, “I have delivered Jericho into your hands!” Israel already had the victory, now they were being called to act on it. But the question remained, how? God’s answer was “Shout.” Joshua told the Israelites, “When you hear…the trumpets…give a loud shout; then the wall of the city will collapse and [you] will go…straight in” (Jos. 6:5 NIV). Now no rational person would expect a shout, no matter how loud, to bring down the walls of a big city. But this was no ordinary shout; it was a shout of faith based on a promise God had made. Even though victory looked impossible, when Israel shouted God responded by bringing down the walls and opening the doors to the Promised Land. When you’re looking for an open door and all you can see is a brick wall, the last thing you feel like doing is shouting “victory,” right? But you need to do it regardless, because: (1) the shout of praise leads to victory; (2) it puts your faith “on the record;” (3) it confounds the enemy and robs him of two of his greatest weapons: doubt and discouragement; (4) obedience, even when you don’t understand, always brings results. So shout—for the victory is yours!


WOW! Was this message something I could have read months ago....maybe even more than a year ago. Being the wanderer I was....wandering away from God......something HAD to make me wake up. It no longer mattered who I made happy because I was miserable. My insides were torn, my mind was not in the right place and Lord knows that my heart was so broken. But lucky for me, I have learned to love myself again and see myself as God sees me. I was created by God. Although I wandered away from him, he was always there. He brought me back to him. And even though it was a rough road, none of that matters now. I will live in the moment, never regret the past and always look for the best for my future. No matter who loves me, or doesn't love me, God always will. It doesn't matter who forgives me or who doesn't forgive me, God always will. It doesn't matter who believes me or who doesn't believe me, God knows the truth. And, God is the ONLY one who matters.

What I am thankful for today:
Faith
Hope
Laughter
my children
my friends
my store
positive thoughts
The Secret
the power of prayer
God
the sunshine
ice cream
a long walk with Makenna today
time at the park today
my health
happiness
love

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Accomplishment and Needed Prayers

Before I get into my actual writing for today I wanted to acknowledge an accomplishment that I made yesterday. My therapist once told me that I do not give myself enough credit for much of anything. So, I have to pat myself on the back for achieving 3 miles in 30 minutes on the elliptical machine yesterday. I am telling you that Wednesdays are my best workout day because of watching the Biggest Loser the night before...LOL!

Never did I think I would be able to run faster than I did in 8th grade when I ran one mile in 27 minutes.... which was the fastest out of my class. Now my goal is to top yesterdays accomplishment.

There is so much I could write about today and I think I am changing my mind about what I had originally planned on writing. Shawn's grandfather passed away in the middle of the night last night. It was something that was not unexpected because his health had been declining in the past few months. He lived a good long life into his 90's. Please say a prayer for Shawn and his family. Let us rejoice that Walter is now in a better place, at peace and without pain.

I may not have met you here on earth Walter, but I will meet you someday when it is my time to be called home.

What I am thankful for today:
the power of prayer
my friends
my children
my achievement yesterday at the gym
my family
scrapbooking
a nice walk with the kids this morning
the sunshine
the blooming flowers
faith
my customers
my teachers
my store
The Secret
Knowing that we are all here to go on our own journey in life....whether or not anyone agrees or disagree with the path we choose.
that God is with us the entire way
knowing that Paradise awaits me
love

Friday, April 2, 2010

Easter

At the gym this morning, I was wishing the kids Happy Easter as they left. One of the children, Adrian, I asked if the Easter Bunny was going to visit him on Sunday. He smiled at me and said, "No. Easter isn't about a bunny and candy, it is all about God." I said in response, "You are absolutely right." He was very content and happy as he left and wished me a Happy Easter. I believe that Adrian is either 5 or 6 years old.

I was delighted to know that this child was surrounded by so many children this morning talking about candy and the Easter Bunny, and yet was still content knowing that he wasn't spending his Easter the same way. And, he was happy for the other children and shared in their excitement.

In my childhood I was very fortunate to be able to have visits from the Easter Bunny but also know what the true meaning of Easter is. Everyone has their own opinions on how to deal with the different holidays and I am not here to judge those who do not do the same things as my family. It was just very nice to see a child of his age excited for the holiday without the 'extras'. How many children do you know that are excited about the resurection of Jesus? I do not know of any off the top of my head....besides Adrian.

Me, well, I am so excited that Jesus has died for our sins and will be rising on Easter morning. What greater gift could God give to us than his only Son? And, to do such an awesome thing for US. In time, I am hoping to instill the true meaning of Easter to my children. Little by little they are getting exposed to religeon. Makenna is interested in learning about Heaven right now. Honestly it is very difficult for Jeremy and I to answer all of her questions. The questions she has are very deep for a 4 year old. Church will help her as time goes on.

So today I am very grateful for the true meaning of Easter. And, for Adrian keeping his smile and contentment in what the true meaning of Easter is really about.

What I am thankful for today:
Easter
my children
flowers
the gym
my store
faith
hope
love
peace
the sunshine
the power of prayer
kindness
laughter
rainbows

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Sam

Although it was a busy weekend, and needless to say an emotional one.....it is done and over with. My friend Jen and I took time to sit with my Pastor and pray. We both felt a relief walking out of the church. Even though Jen and I pray on a regular basis on our own time, it is nice to know that at any time we feel the need to go a step above that, we can.

Watching The Biggest Loser last night, Sam said a few things that really hit home with me. He said that he is done with the patterns of his past. He realizes that no matter how he lives his life and no matter whether or not he is even here on earth, life goes on. So he is going to live his life to the fullest filling himself up with positive things instead of the smoking, the alcohol and the food that he was using to fulfill the voids before he was on the show.

Just because Sam partied and may not have lived his life the way others would have wanted him to does not take away from the fact that he is a very awesome human being. Sam is very strong and he is a very kindhearted loving person. As he is transforming and healing, and losing all this weight, you can see the Sam that lies beneath the heartache. He is an inspiration to many, including myself.

God wants us to look passed the junk we see in people. For any issue we have with another is actually an issue with ourselves. It is a problem that we have to learn how to deal with better. We cannot change people. So, God wants us to love them just as they are. Of course we are not going to agree with everything they do but that doesn't mean that we have to try to change them to make us happy. That would be selfish anyway. When I see a person with heartache or 'issues', I pray for them. I also ask God to help lead them to a better path of life. God is also able to help you help that person, that is if the person is willing to accept it. If you are a person who walks with God, people will see God through you.

Somehow Sam and the other contestants were lead to The Biggest Loser to change their ways. When it comes down to their weight it is always an emotional issue that is the cause of it. Once they heal and can let go of the past, they can live more fully. I may not have had an issue with weight but I definitely had issues that needed to be healed....as most of us do. Somehow God lead me back to him to transform my life. Like Sam, I realize that life will go on with or without me. So while I am here I will try to make a difference in people's lives, live to the fullest and love unconditionally the best that I can.....with God's help.

What I am thankful for today:
my children
my pets
my friends
the sunshine
blooming flowers
the energy to run last night
time
healing
forgiveness
laughter
inspirational people
my store
my teachers
creativity
my customers
Shawn
Diane
Jen
Pastor Tricia
Jamie
Melinda
PartyLite
quality time with my children
The Biggest Loser
positive thinking
love