Monday, February 9, 2009


Have you ever felt like your insides were going to explode? If so, than you know how I am feeling right now. Because I have been extremely busy with tons of things going on in my life, I tend to forget to take care of myself.

Since my miscarriage in 2005, my doctors have kept me on Zoloft. For years it worked the best out of anything I was ever on. Lately it hasn't seemed to be working. The doctors had me try increasing the dosage and I only felt worse. So, I am not sure what to do from here. I would love to try something herbal and get myself off of this medication for good.

The reason I am going through withdraw is because I have not had my medicine since Friday and it is now Monday night. Yes, there is a reason why doctors tell you to talk to them before taking yourself off of your medication. It is amazing the feelings you can have when you are experiencing withdraw. Don't worry, I will have my medication tomorrow. I can actually say that I am mean, nasty, and very very antsy. So not me.

Just please take my advice and do not take yourself off of any medication without speaking to your doctor. I feel horrible that my husband and my children are the ones taking the brunt of this. Thankfully it will not be for long.

Tonight I am thankful for a patient husband and understanding children. I am thankful that I can understand why I am like this and try to deal with it the best that I can. I appreciate my life and all of the lessons I have learned, even the hard ones. Losing a child, even in utero is one of the hardest things in the world to get over. Even though I never held that baby in my arms, I will always hold it dear to my heart.