Saturday, July 25, 2009

Free Therapy.....The Best Kind

Last night I was lucky enough to get a free therapy session from my neighbor Rudy. I have a few in my life who have experienced lots of life lessons and he is one of them. I value his philosophy on life and I enjoy hearing it, especially while eating chocolate pudding pie.....LOL! Thank you for the pie Diane! Rudy has been married 4 times. I guess it just takes some of us longer than others to get to the right person. He feels like I do, you have to go through these experiences to get to where you want to be. Do I look down on him or being married 4 times, absolutely not. Who am I to judge the decisions he has made. All I know is that he is now completely happy in his life and that is all that matters. As we all know that when one is happy, they make everyone around them happy as well.

What I learned from his talk last night was that I need to stand up for myself. I also need to stand up for what I believe in. I believe in happiness and I believe that we all need to fill ourselves up in order to spread our happiness to others. I was under the assumption that filling ourselves up was selfish. This is why I spent my entire life so far trying to make others happy while feeling very empty inside. I gave all I had until I ended up with nothing and in a depression. Then of course almost everyone left my side because I had nothing left to give..... except for my true friends.

Right now, I am going to concentrate on myself. With no commitments, no obligations, no promises to anyone but myself. This is the first time I am able to say that I am completely fine with being alone. It is the first time that I am free of fear, free of insecurity and can feel complete by myself. I will be so much more ready to face any relationship that comes my way. And I know that I have a wonderful life in store for me. And, whoever ends up by my side through life will feel that happiness and positivity that I now feel. Nothing is more wonderful than being able to spread your joy. However, we HAVE to feel it inside ourselves.....first.

What I am thankful for today:
my free therapy session last night
Crop for a Cure today!!
chocolate pudding pie
long talks
my health
my happiness
the happiness of my family & friends
creative people
intelligent people
open mindedness
my courage
my faith