Wednesday, July 22, 2009

It's My Life

Through Diane this morning..LOL...the song "It's My life" was mentioned to me. Lately I have been feeling like I have to prove myself to people. I have been feeling the weight of being judged, which was the reason for my last blog. I try to keep in mind that this is a problem that other people have within themselves and that they are the ones who have to learn to deal with it. If it wasn't for therapy I would have never realized that. We are who we are and not everyone has to agree with us and the direction we take in life. Knowing that in The Secret it states that we all make the proper decisions for ourselves (cannot mention that quote enough lately) there will still be those opinionated people who have to put in their two cents. It is how we chose to deal with it that makes a difference. For the past couple of days, I have been stuck with this weight laying heavy on my heart and having a hard time letting go of it. So, last night I chose to write in my Gratitude Book then I said a prayer. I prayed that God will relieve me of this burden. I prayed that he will lead me in the direction of my dreams, a life that is perfect for me and my children. I prayed that he surrounds me with people who support me whether or not they agree with my decisions. I prayed that I feel a balance of energy and am overflowed with positive thoughts and energy. Most of the times I fall asleep in the middle of praying but last night I managed to get it all out. I know I needed it. Today, I woke up feeling much better and feeling less heaviness on my heart. God will walk me through life as long as I allow him too. I can make no mistakes for nothing is a mistake...everything happens for a reason. This is MY life and the only one who can live it is me.

It's My Life By Bon Jovi

This ain't a song for the brokenhearted
No silent prayer for the faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud

It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky, gotta make your own breaks

It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

You better stand tall
When they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break
Baby, don't back down

It's my life
It's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive

(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!

What I am thankful for today:
Diane
feeling better today
the power of prayer
rain
my new Partylite catalogs
getting together with the girls tonight
Jamie
Jenny
Shawn
Jen
Heather
Buffy
Melinda
my children
getting the Scrapping the Music Challenge done yesterday
Thursday night's class being full
the messages we get through music
a great night's sleep last night
a great day today!