"I feel pretty...oh so pretty...." I need to sing this to myself to make me laugh. Today I am feeling very sleepy. Between sleeping wrong and waking up with my back in pain and my cat meowing at 6am....I am very sleepy today. I had quite a few weird dreams off an on which make me feel like I worked in my sleep. Ever feel that way? LOL! Despite the aches and pains and the tiredness, I feel pretty ok. Makenna and I are watching the move Bolt for like the 10 millionth time. I wonder what it is about certain movies that put children in a trans. And, make them want to watch it over and over again. This is a very cute movie though and I can see why the kids love it. I love Makenna's excitement at certain parts of the movie. She gets that evil laugh about her. Wonder where she got that......LOL!
Lately I have been feeling some resentment and some anger off and on. Thankfully I feel happy most of the times. Recently I have started going back to counseling. I feel that I need to work through the resentment and anger so that my kids do not feel that from me. Yesterday I went and of course I always leave feeling really good. I talked through my issues and felt a sense of relief. My counselor said last week, that she is very happy to see how well I am doing off of my medication. Last time I saw her was back in September. I was so thrilled to hear her tell me that she sees me as a much more positive person with a great attitude about life. Back in September, I was definitely not this positive. When she asked me what had changed, I told her that I read the book The Secret. Her eyes lit up and she smiled. She has read the book too!
Before I left she asked me what I am doing on a daily basis to keep my positive spirit. I mentioned that I have been walking every day...or almost everyday..which we all know that exercise is wonderful for the mind, body and spirit! I also mentioned that I was writing in my journal every night before I went to sleep. I told her that writing what I am thankful for every day makes me feel so spiritually fulfilled. It makes me appreciate everything I do have. Which I know I have a lot to be thankful for. The therapist was very pleased with what I do daily to stay positive. Everyone needs something to keep their spirits up. It may take a little to find what works for you. But I highly recommend it!
What I am thankful for today:
A wonderful therpapist
my Grateful Journal
5 months off of all medication...YEAH!
keeping up a positive attitude even through ups and downs
heating pads and advil
each and every new day