Thursday, February 3, 2011

The Feeling of Being Independent

Sitting on the couch for the third day has me extremely stir crazy. So I have decided in between cat naps, I will write out my wish list (wish list for life), blog some more, and do a lot of research on the web.

I realized that while I was married, there was a lot of responsibilities that I no longer had, besides cleaning, cooking and taking care of the kids. Ya I know so back in the 50's, right? Everything was together and Jeremy did everything online so I didn't have to deal with it. On my own I had to start over getting things in my name, getting things on my own and it was a very scary thought. Never thought I depended that much on someone to help take care of me and my life. It amazes me how one may take for granted the help of others. Believe me, I was always grateful but maybe not as grateful as I should have been.

In the last few weeks I have been researching life insurance, car insurance, health insurance and more. It has been draining but I am so happy that I am doing it on my own. This is the first time that I didn't need help gathering the stuff I needed for the taxes for my business. What a sense of accomplishment for me. I can do this myself and I will. It was nice to pay for my own car insurance after the endless forms I filled out to get quotes. And after years of having Jeremy pay for everything, it is nice to be able to do things for myself.

Many ask me how I keep my life together with all that I do. My response is, "I just don't think about it and just do it." I also make a point try to keep a regular schedule: Thursday nights is volunteer night at the shelter, I work every weekend at the store, Mondays, Tuesdays and Thursdays are committed to the gym. During whatever free time I have I am working on the website for the store, cleaning my house, posting classes on facebook and, doing laundry, running my kids around, cooking, playing with the kids, and so on. I make it work. Thankfully I have a great network of people who are willing to help me with the kids if I have to be at the gym.

Although I am busy, it makes me a better mom. I enjoy the time I get with my children even more than I did when I wasn't as busy. I feel good about myself because I am being productive, working for what I want and need to live, without being dependent on someone else. I feel very blessed to be able to have my hobby as my career and work in a gym which enables me to bring my kids, have a free membership and work with some amazing people. If you write out what you want and start doing the things you have to do to get there, things fall into place.

I may not be working my dream job but I am well on my way. Things will happen when they are meant to happen. But you have to get going to get anywhere. Even if you are on the right track, you will get run over if you just sit there. 

Pray to God that he leads you to where you need to be. Commit to him and all your plans will succeed.

What I am thankful for today:

being indepentent
my Chloe who has been nursing me since I got sick
quality time
my health
the health of my family and friends
true blessings
Rachel for making me laugh today
Diane for getting Makenna to school
Jennifer G, Erika and mom checking up on me today
my store
the gym
Dwayne for working out with me
my family
the sunshine
clean laundry
new books
The Center
Christine for being such a wonderful person
my pets
Cheryl for being so wonderful with Makenna
all the wonderful people who are involved with my store
Jeremy for being such a good daddy
the power of prayer
my life