Too much to talk about....

There is so much I could write about tonight that I do not even know where to start. My first choice would be at how amazed I am at Makenna with this potty training. She went from wanting nothing to do with it to almost completely trained in one week. She is still in underwear for the 6th day in a row. She has only had two accidents. Makenna doesn't want us to put a diaper on her at night because she feels that she is now a big girl. Well, what we usually do is put a diaper on her once she is asleep. Last night I fell asleep before I had the chance to put one on her. At 3am she woke me up to tell me that she needed to use the potty. Of course at first I am thinking this is totally a dream when I realized that she seriously was not wearing a diaper. I ran her into the potty and she went. I was so excited that I almost could not go back to sleep! I am so proud of her.

The other day I called the Christ Lutheran Church on Main Street to find out the details of registering her in pre-school. Makenna and I are going to head to the school in a couple of weeks to check it out. I want her to be introduced to religion since we only get to church at the holidays. I am totally one who thinks that their children should be introduced to different aspects of religion and different beliefs. However, I am not going to push it on my children. I want them to make their own decisions on what they believe in when the time is right. I will support any decision they make. To me and Jer, this school sounds like a good one to get Makenna interested in learning not just academics but a little bit of religion as well.

The next thing I want to express is how much I cried today! Everyone who knows me, knows that my friends are one of the most important things in my life. I consider myself very loyal, very giving, very trust worthy.... an all around good friend. I went to Melinda's today so that the kids could play since there was no school. Melinda expressed her negative attitude and how much she does not like herself right now. Being one that hates to see my friends hurting, I could not help but to cry with her. I know how important it is to stay strong for people when they need it. It was so hard for me to keep my feelings aside this time. When I went to visit Marty, her husband, at his work (a print shop) to discuss a project for a customer of mine and a new sign for out front of my building, we of course got on the topic of Melinda. That is when I lost it. It was as if, I had an easier time not being strong in front of Marty. With Marty's help I am sure we can get Melinda on the right path to happiness once again. When I left Melinda's house I called my friend Jenny. Again, talking about Melinda I started to BALL! It is so true that when your friends hurt, you hurt. Marty has been living The Secret as long as I have known him. He is always positive, always grateful and always able to turn the crappiest situation around. I am so thankful that Melinda has him by her side and I am so grateful that I have him in my life. Melinda's life will turn around very soon....I can feel it.

I need to pat myself on the back for being able to celebrate my second week without my Zoloft. Can you believe that I am not bald? Can you believe that I haven't punched a wall yet? I am amazed myself. I put The Secret into affect by stating that I want to be healthy without my medication. I want to live a healthy life without it. So far, I have been feeling pretty good. I have had my meltdowns and my angry moments which are just that, moments. For the most part, I feel a lot better. I feel more alive and happier, with more energy.

Tonight I am thankful for:
Being able to be there for a friend
Makenna with her potty training
Friendly's
Marty for allowing me to cry on his shoulder and for his help with my store.

Melinda for just being herself.

Jenny and Rita for making me laugh tonight at Kohl's

My kids who crack me up singing to Nickleback in the car (don't worry I fast forward the inappropriate songs)

My new website

Smiles, Laughter and Love By Amy Musser

True love comes easy when you love truly.

Smiles surround you when you give them away.
Laughter enlightens a heavy heart
even in ones darkest of days.

Laugh, even at the small stuff
Smile at the ones who frown

Love with your entire heart and soul

and watch your life turn around.

Three things that come so easy

yet some find it hard to do.
So surround yourself with laughter and love

and truly feel it within you.

When you feel these things deep inside
you will be an inspiration a

positive influence, a guide.

To all of those who are lacking

smiles, love and laughter

you can show them the way to their dreams

and what they should go after.
Be thankful, be grateful,

be positive and be a giver

and you will be amazed at

what the universe will deliver.