Rudy once said to me, "No matter what anyone thinks, no matter what anyone says, you absolutely must stand up to whatever it is that YOU believe in." With this running through my head, I think to myself...what do I believe in? I know that giving is something that I completely believe in doing since it is so much more fulfilling than receiving. (At least it is to me.) I also believe in loyalty. Being in a position many times where I have felt the wrath of being stabbed in the back from someone who you may think is a true friend. I have had people say that no matter what they would always be there for me. Then I around and they are no where to be found. I am sure I have had my turn of not being as loyal as I should have been. Life experiences have taught me that loyalty is very important. Friendship is something that I completely believe in. Life would get pretty darn lonely without friends. And, it seems as though when you are at your lowest point, your true friends are the ones who are still by your side. They are the ones who are completely loyal and very giving. Freedom is of course another huge thing. There are so many things that I know I would fight for to the end. These mentioned are only a few of them.
One of the biggest things I believe in is love. The love I have for my children is like no other love I could have ever experienced. I always have said that with the love of my kids, I feel like I could take on the world. Being a mom does turn us women into a different being. Someone recently told me how much they respect mothers. They respect mothers because we gain these super powers that men will never gain. One is the power to multi task the other is the power to stand up to anyone. I have mastered the multi tasking LOL! Standing up to anyone....well, I am working on it. If they get in the way of my children, you better believe that I will open my mouth. However, when my feelings are hurt I find it difficult to tell the person how I feel. I am working on this in therapy. Feeling judged and criticised, it is not easy for me to express how sad I am to the people who are being so judgemental. I know in time things will be fine. So I guess all I need is time? I keep reminding myself that it is just words...just words...... And, once again that those being judgemental are only bringing on more judgement onto themselves.
The next thing I believe in completely is happiness. Everyone deserves to be happy and no one in this world can know what will fulfill another person. And, it is no one's business on why something makes someone happy. Like Jen reminded me today, "You always tell me that it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks." These are words I always say to her. Funny how sometimes we need to re-hear our own advice. She is right...well, I am right...LOL! It may hurt when you find out someone doesn't agree with your choices, or that they are discussing your personal life behind your back. The important thing to remember is that IT DOESN'T MATTER! So, my advice today: don't worry, be happy. And, do not allow other people's opinions to alter your decisions. They do not live your life....you do. And remember to stand up for what you believe in...no matter what. How is that for being strong? LOL!
What I am thankful for today:
Feels Like Heaven (love that movie!)
getting in 3 walks today!
the park and lunch today with Makenna, Jen and Tanner
Gavin enjoying his 1st day of school
being a mommy
time with my kids
a beautiful day today
an appointment with the Healing Place tomorrow
my enormous mums