Believe

Today's Daily Teaching:

There are two kinds of people:
Those who say, "I will believe it when I see it."
And those who say, "To see it, I know I must believe it."

I can be honest in saying that I totally used to be the first of the two. And, I hear people say this all the time. Living The Secret, I know we must believe in order to see.

Being that my life is crazy right now and I have to feel the brunt of judgement from others, I was stuck not seeing a way out of this. Why is it that people think they know how we should live our lives? Why do they have to even judge at all? No, not everyone needs to agree with how others live. However, we all need to keep that to ourselves and let them go about their business. Enough venting. Every night when I write in my Gratitude Book I write something to the affect that I am thankful for seeing the light at the end of the tunnel. I am thankful for people allowing me to live my life without placing judgement on me. I am thankful that I do not allow other people's opinions affect my decisions. I am thankful for my peaceful mind, body, and spirit. I am thankful that people's judgement will not bother me.

Although I may not completely feel these things now, I believe they will come. I believe that we create our lives with what we believe in. Faith comes into play here too and this is why I pray for faith to pursue what I believe in every night. I pray that God leads me in the direction I need to go. So far he has not steered me wrong. I love the person I am now and I could never say that before. If others do not like me for who I am, it is there problem and it will not affect me.

In therapy it was brought to my attention that I am at a place in my life where I actually know what I want and will go after it. I am healing every day from the turmoil of my past experiences which at one time I kept buried deep within. Yes it is hard to resurface issues and open old wounds. I firmly believe to heal we need to do this. With the support of my friends who have proven to me that no matter what, they are by my side...not placing judgement, not criticizing.....I will get through everything that is ahead of me. I will get through what I need to and live my life to the fullest. This I truly believe.

What I am thankful for today:
The following friends for loving me enough to let me live my life the best I know how and still supporting me in every way. I love you guys!
Jamie
Diane
Jenny
Rachel
Heather
Jen
Buffy
Melinda
Sally
Tricia
Shawn
Todd
Rudy
Bob
Brian
Mike
Missy
Kirsten
Rita
Annie
Kathy
Denise
Judy
Kate
Cheryl

I am also thankful for:
Amy Grant's Time Again Concert DVD which I have been watching all day as an inspiration.
Her book which let me know that her life was not too far off mine.
The Daily Teachings
August Classes
my new side-walk sign for the store!! Thank you HEATHER!
Playing Wii with Makenna, Gavin and Jenny last night.
the sunshine today
getting things done
Makenna climbing in bed with me every night and wrapping her arms around my neck.
Gavin and Makenna singing (loudly) the Daughtry CD in my car last night.
getting into a size Medium!!!!
the piece of jewelry Shawn made me for my birthday.
Knowing that I can 'lay down my burden and God will carry me' ~Amy Grant
The Healing Place
my life