This past weekend was a very fun weekend. I closed the store early on Saturday and went to the races to see my dad. It rained off and on and was very muddy! It was a great day despite the weather. I love watching the kids play together and cheer on their Pop-Pop. As a child I would love to go to the races to watch my dad. Usually it was just me and my dad. I would sit with his best friend's family when he was racing. I miss those days. I remember my toy jeep, which by the way was yellow. I used to race it around in the mud, up and down the hills. Ya, I was a tom boy. Maybe this was because my dad insisted that I was a boy during my mothers entire pregnancy. All I know is that I wouldn't change it for the world. I had an awesome childhood racing around in my go-cart and on my motorcycle. It was my 'happy place' as a child. I didn't have a care in the world when I was racing. Now I understand why my dad enjoys it so much.
On Sunday we spent the morning at home. Jer made breakfast for all of us because I was feeling crappy. The kids gave him a handmade card and a gift from Starbucks. We were going to go kayaking and take my dad however....dad wanted to do something that does not require anything physical. I guess he was tired from the races. So, we decided to take the kids and my parents to see the movie UP. It was very good. Last night, Gavin was with his daddy, I pulled weeds and Jeremy spent some time with Makenna. It was a great weekend once again.
Last night my friend Shawn called me. We talked for a bit and I discovered that he was almost killed in an accident in 1993. As my heart sank, probably since I never knew that, I felt bad that I was not there for him during that time. He suffers now from pain in his back but other than that, he is doing great. I am so thankful that God has brought him back in my life. We laughed on the phone and have started to make arrangements to get together soon. Tonight I am heading to the Healing Place. I need to find my happy place again. Apparently this is what they do there. I am excited for them to try to balance out my energy. I wonder where my happy place is. Is it on the go-cart as a child? Is it on top of a horse as I am riding though the fields? Or is it feeling the pink sand between my toes as I walk the beaches of Bermuda? I guess I will find out tonight. I am hoping that I will have the time to blog tomorrow about the experience I have there.
What I am thankful for today:
my kids
the SUN!!
my friends
a great weekend
the awesome sunset at the races
muddy feet
my dad winning the one lap he was able to do
rides with the kids
the cows at the fair
horseback riding
movies
time with my family
my appointment tonight
time to blog
my happy place (wherever that is)
my health
the health of my family and friends
smiles
laughter
love
Monday, June 22, 2009
Friday, June 19, 2009
9 Ways Humor Can Heal & Knowing You Will Be Ok
Since I cried so hard the other night, my nose is just STUFFY STUFFY STUFFY! Man, what one negative night can do to a person! I also realized that I have not laughed much in the last few days. Funny enough, I was sent this Beliefnet.com article that I somehow missed the other day. Today the title caught my attention. It was exactly what I needed. The article is called, 9 Ways Humor Can Heal. Click the title of this blog since it is linked to the article. I loved it!
Have you ever had a moment where you just needed to have a sign and fast that would tell you that everything would be ok? Well, I have been feeling this for the last 3 days. We all get into ruts where we need to see even a little crack of light at the end of the tunnel. Some of us get so blinded in the dark that we do not even see hope of that light. Well, I do not give up....most of you know that by now. Everyone who surrounds me tells me how positive I am and how I will make it through the worst of things whether I believe it or not. Love those people who are constantly reminding me that. However, one really needs to feel it within. So, I decided to pray.....and I mean pray until the tears are streaming down my face (another reason for the stuffy nose). It reminds me of the scene in Bruce Almighty when Jim Carey is told to pray. The first prayer was very quick and not very heartfelt. The second prayer was from deep down in his soul. I remember hearing Morgan Freeman saying, "Now THAT was a prayer!" It is almost as if I can hear God speaking to me saying those exact words when I am finished. Too bad he cannot hand me a tissue when there are NONE near me....LOL! Guess you can't have it all, right? Tonight I was very discouraged since it has been three nights and no signs. God does work in misterious ways...on his own time. Keeping that in thought, I told myself that it will come. Tonight it was like a switch in my head. All of the sudden out of nowhere something just clicked. I knew with every inch of my being that everything was going to be ok. Tears streamed down my face out of relief, out of satisfaction, out of peace. God does answer our prayers, but you'd better be listening. Thankfully my angels communicate to me through music. And, when they do I KNOW IT! How blessed am I? Not once have they failed me with the lyric or song. Not once have I had to question what this means. I was told by two different people that I am very blessed since I am fortunate enough to be surrounded by so many angels and loved ones who have passed. I feel them around me all the time. They will keep me heading towards the light even when things start to get dark. Yes, this week was not as positive as I would have hoped. But this doesn't mean that this will continue, as long as I do not allow it too. My angels will see that I don't.
What I am thankful for tonight:
tissues
the power of prayer
the article, 9 Ways Humor Can Heal
Bruce Almighty
being surrounded by angels and loved ones all the time
signs from my angels
music
my friends aka angels here on earth
Heather for coming in the store to visit me tonight
Zachary and his wonderful hugs
Jen and her 3 silly boys (thanks for visiting me too!)
a fun and full stamping class last night
my health
the health of my family and friends
the sunshine
going to see my dad race tomorrow
Beliefnet.com
the power of positive thinking
laughter
funny movies
an awesome night's sleep tonight
silly memories from the past
people I can share those memories with
creativity
inspiration
love
knowing everything will be ok
Have you ever had a moment where you just needed to have a sign and fast that would tell you that everything would be ok? Well, I have been feeling this for the last 3 days. We all get into ruts where we need to see even a little crack of light at the end of the tunnel. Some of us get so blinded in the dark that we do not even see hope of that light. Well, I do not give up....most of you know that by now. Everyone who surrounds me tells me how positive I am and how I will make it through the worst of things whether I believe it or not. Love those people who are constantly reminding me that. However, one really needs to feel it within. So, I decided to pray.....and I mean pray until the tears are streaming down my face (another reason for the stuffy nose). It reminds me of the scene in Bruce Almighty when Jim Carey is told to pray. The first prayer was very quick and not very heartfelt. The second prayer was from deep down in his soul. I remember hearing Morgan Freeman saying, "Now THAT was a prayer!" It is almost as if I can hear God speaking to me saying those exact words when I am finished. Too bad he cannot hand me a tissue when there are NONE near me....LOL! Guess you can't have it all, right? Tonight I was very discouraged since it has been three nights and no signs. God does work in misterious ways...on his own time. Keeping that in thought, I told myself that it will come. Tonight it was like a switch in my head. All of the sudden out of nowhere something just clicked. I knew with every inch of my being that everything was going to be ok. Tears streamed down my face out of relief, out of satisfaction, out of peace. God does answer our prayers, but you'd better be listening. Thankfully my angels communicate to me through music. And, when they do I KNOW IT! How blessed am I? Not once have they failed me with the lyric or song. Not once have I had to question what this means. I was told by two different people that I am very blessed since I am fortunate enough to be surrounded by so many angels and loved ones who have passed. I feel them around me all the time. They will keep me heading towards the light even when things start to get dark. Yes, this week was not as positive as I would have hoped. But this doesn't mean that this will continue, as long as I do not allow it too. My angels will see that I don't.
What I am thankful for tonight:
tissues
the power of prayer
the article, 9 Ways Humor Can Heal
Bruce Almighty
being surrounded by angels and loved ones all the time
signs from my angels
music
my friends aka angels here on earth
Heather for coming in the store to visit me tonight
Zachary and his wonderful hugs
Jen and her 3 silly boys (thanks for visiting me too!)
a fun and full stamping class last night
my health
the health of my family and friends
the sunshine
going to see my dad race tomorrow
Beliefnet.com
the power of positive thinking
laughter
funny movies
an awesome night's sleep tonight
silly memories from the past
people I can share those memories with
creativity
inspiration
love
knowing everything will be ok
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Tears, Realization and Thankfulness
Last night was rough for me. I actually found myself sad and feeling sorry for myself. Was it my mood? Was it because I was tired? Could have been a number of things. All I know is that I have not cried that hard in a very long time. It was one of those cries that your head and your eyes hurt the next day. I have realized that some days things just bother me more than others.....must be the fact that I am a girl. (I see everyone reading this shaking their heads.) Since I read The Secret I have been very positive and no I do not see this as a set back. We all have moments where we are just not feeling 'right'. Last night was one of those nights. I am blogging about it because I want everyone to realize that even though I am living positively, I still have moments of sadness and stress. To me, it is how we choose to deal with those feelings. Did I take a nap and turn the world off? No. While that does sound appealing, the world will still be just as it was when I wake up. You are wondering what I did to change my weepy mood. Well, I allowed myself to cry since tears are very healing. Once I could not cry anymore, I started to pray. I prayed (and found more tears) I kept praying until I just didn't know what else to pray about. I then opened up my Gratitude Book knowing that I was not feeling thankful at that point. Still I wrote all that I am thankful for. I started to notice that my mood was changing. I started feeling fulfilled instead of empty. I also started feeling loved. It is amazing the feeling you get when you are thinking about the things you are thankful for. I went to bed soon after and slept better than I have in a long time. Of course I feel like I have a hang over today. Advil just isn't doing the trick today.
After a long hard look at why I was so upset I realized exactly what it was. My problem is guilt. I feel very guilty when I am very wrapped up in my own things and I do not get to spend quality time with my kids. Because of my open house and the birthday party the next day, I was very focused on those two things for a couple of weeks. Both of them were preoccupying a lot of my time. Because I was stressing myself out about having everything done and ready, I was not sleeping and I was always tired around my children. Once I can pinpoint the problem, I can fix it. Time management is what I need. It is very hard to do that when you are your own boss. I work at home, at work, and when I am out running around. I need to work only when I am at work. This is VERY hard for me to do. But I am going to try. I seriously do not know if my kids even noticed that Mommy was preoccupied so much but I certainly did. I love my kids more than anything in this world. They are only little once and I am not going to allow myself to miss out on their only childhood. Whether they are bothered by it or not, I am. And, nobody likes an unhappy mommy.
What I am thankful for today:
being able to be at Gavin's last day of school party
making cookies with Makenna this morning
music (which always cheers me up)
Makenna being so well behaved at Gavin's party
time to walk with Jenny
hot green tea
advil (although I need something stronger today)
a walk in the rain with Makenna this morning (of course she had the umbrella and I did not.....LOL!)
Diane for being there for me all the time
Jamie for being my best friend and promising to help me find my teeth when I am an old lady......LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jenny for motivating me and being a loyal friend
(If you three only knew how much I love you guys!)
my children and every moment I have with them
peace and quiet
the color purple
a wonderful nights sleep tonight
an awesome day tomorrow
After a long hard look at why I was so upset I realized exactly what it was. My problem is guilt. I feel very guilty when I am very wrapped up in my own things and I do not get to spend quality time with my kids. Because of my open house and the birthday party the next day, I was very focused on those two things for a couple of weeks. Both of them were preoccupying a lot of my time. Because I was stressing myself out about having everything done and ready, I was not sleeping and I was always tired around my children. Once I can pinpoint the problem, I can fix it. Time management is what I need. It is very hard to do that when you are your own boss. I work at home, at work, and when I am out running around. I need to work only when I am at work. This is VERY hard for me to do. But I am going to try. I seriously do not know if my kids even noticed that Mommy was preoccupied so much but I certainly did. I love my kids more than anything in this world. They are only little once and I am not going to allow myself to miss out on their only childhood. Whether they are bothered by it or not, I am. And, nobody likes an unhappy mommy.
What I am thankful for today:
being able to be at Gavin's last day of school party
making cookies with Makenna this morning
music (which always cheers me up)
Makenna being so well behaved at Gavin's party
time to walk with Jenny
hot green tea
advil (although I need something stronger today)
a walk in the rain with Makenna this morning (of course she had the umbrella and I did not.....LOL!)
Diane for being there for me all the time
Jamie for being my best friend and promising to help me find my teeth when I am an old lady......LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jenny for motivating me and being a loyal friend
(If you three only knew how much I love you guys!)
my children and every moment I have with them
peace and quiet
the color purple
a wonderful nights sleep tonight
an awesome day tomorrow
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
My 100 Things
I have not blogged about 100 things I am thankful for so I am going to work on this today.It is VERY important for us to be thankful and show gratitude every single day. When we do this we are bringing more things to be grateful for into our lives.
100. my kids and my haircut on Friday (way overdue for all of us)
99. my children
98. my pets
97. my family
96. my friends (if I named them all, I would have 100 things!)
95. French Vanilla iced coffee from McDonald's
94. my neighbors
93. my parents
92. egg mcmuffins
91. my store
90. my classes
89. my teachers
87. my layout team
86. positive people
85. creativity
84. inspiration
83. dreams
82. goals
81. my flower gardens
80. my home
79. my van
78. sleep
76. energy
75. the health of my family, friends, children and myself
74. summer
73. painted toes
72. one more day of school for the kids!
70. laughter
69. funny movies
68. music
67. email
65. reconnecting with old friends
64. money
63. PartyLite Candles
62. my PartyLite Sponsors
61. The Secret
60. the power of positive thinking
59. forgiveness
58. honesty
57. selflessness
56. the beach
55. sunsets
54. responsibility
53. presidential drinks...lol!
52. moments with friends and family
51. longs walks with Jenny
50. clean laundry
49. fresh fruit and veggies
48. being down one clothing size and being close to being down two
47. organic food
46. Vassie's
45. Bryer's Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream
44. rainbow sprinkles
43. Toasted Almonds
42. Crossroads
41. chicken on the grill
40. my dad's potatoes and green peppers on the grill
39. massages
38. Makenna and Gavin's smiles, laughter and silly faces
37. Goosfraba
36. butterflies
35. animals
34. my clothes
33. the Dollar Tree
32. Kohl's
31. magical moments
30. happiness
29. silliness
28. going to see my dad race this weekend
27. books
26. inspirational quotes
25. time alone
24. Nickelback concert in July!!
23. flip flops
22. horse back riding
21. racing the gator
20. Don Diego the alpaca
19. rainbows
18. my Premier Jewelry
17. the baby sparrows in the bird house outback (so cute)
16. scrapbooking
15. card making
13. Scrapping the Music Challenge
12. the wonderful people who follow my blogs and post comments (thank you!)
11. Stampin Up!
10. each and every new day
9. Mondays and Wednesdays off
8. my therapist
7. being off all medication for over 7 months and still keeping my sanity!!
6. signs from my angels
5. a peaceful mind
4. my positive attitude
3. being surrounded by only positive people
2. the knowledge that actions speak louder than words
1. my life
100. my kids and my haircut on Friday (way overdue for all of us)
99. my children
98. my pets
97. my family
96. my friends (if I named them all, I would have 100 things!)
95. French Vanilla iced coffee from McDonald's
94. my neighbors
93. my parents
92. egg mcmuffins
91. my store
90. my classes
89. my teachers
87. my layout team
86. positive people
85. creativity
84. inspiration
83. dreams
82. goals
81. my flower gardens
80. my home
79. my van
78. sleep
76. energy
75. the health of my family, friends, children and myself
74. summer
73. painted toes
72. one more day of school for the kids!
70. laughter
69. funny movies
68. music
67. email
65. reconnecting with old friends
64. money
63. PartyLite Candles
62. my PartyLite Sponsors
61. The Secret
60. the power of positive thinking
59. forgiveness
58. honesty
57. selflessness
56. the beach
55. sunsets
54. responsibility
53. presidential drinks...lol!
52. moments with friends and family
51. longs walks with Jenny
50. clean laundry
49. fresh fruit and veggies
48. being down one clothing size and being close to being down two
47. organic food
46. Vassie's
45. Bryer's Mint Chocolate Chip ice cream
44. rainbow sprinkles
43. Toasted Almonds
42. Crossroads
41. chicken on the grill
40. my dad's potatoes and green peppers on the grill
39. massages
38. Makenna and Gavin's smiles, laughter and silly faces
37. Goosfraba
36. butterflies
35. animals
34. my clothes
33. the Dollar Tree
32. Kohl's
31. magical moments
30. happiness
29. silliness
28. going to see my dad race this weekend
27. books
26. inspirational quotes
25. time alone
24. Nickelback concert in July!!
23. flip flops
22. horse back riding
21. racing the gator
20. Don Diego the alpaca
19. rainbows
18. my Premier Jewelry
17. the baby sparrows in the bird house outback (so cute)
16. scrapbooking
15. card making
13. Scrapping the Music Challenge
12. the wonderful people who follow my blogs and post comments (thank you!)
11. Stampin Up!
10. each and every new day
9. Mondays and Wednesdays off
8. my therapist
7. being off all medication for over 7 months and still keeping my sanity!!
6. signs from my angels
5. a peaceful mind
4. my positive attitude
3. being surrounded by only positive people
2. the knowledge that actions speak louder than words
1. my life
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