Amy's Insight On Life

Tuesday, June 21, 2011

Today...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yPvgg_6hGOU&feature=share

I felt the need to share this amazing youtube video that was posted on Choose Happiness's wall today. It was the most perfect thing for me to read. There are many angels in my life that go hand in hand as to what is stated in this video. If it wasn't for my friends, I may not be able to get on track on my 'off days'. Same thing goes for Robin and all of the inspirational pages that I have come across since January. Erika brought up the fact that in January we only had 99 followers on the Happy Inspirational Scrappin faacebook page. Now we are up to 336 getting about 3 new followers a day. YAY! We must be doing something right! My other angels include my children, my family, my fur-angels, and certainly Shawn. God brings about these wonderful blessings to help us on our journey. Please read the amazing words of the video. You will be blown away.

So my weekend flew by. Kempton was so much fun with my family. My dad and my brother both raced. Dad came in 2nd, twice. Brian came in 2nd once then 1st. It takes me back to my childhood remembering sitting there watching my dad race as I was playing trucks in the mud. I still get those butterflies in my stomach when he is at the starting line. I know he is so happy that we are all there to cheer him on and watch him engage in something that he absolutely loves.

Father's Day was really good with the exception of having to say good-bye to someone I love. A friend of mine is moving away and we had a party for her in the morning. We both cried although we know that God has great things in store for her and we will keep in touch. Makenna and I took Jeremy to Red Lobster for what was supposed to be breakfast but he wanted a meal for brunch. So that is what he got. 5 hours later my entire family arrived for a steak dinner. My Aunt, mom and I cooked for the men. It turned out really yummy! Honestly I was still full from brunch but I ate anyway. I took a long walk after dinner...too full to run. My moms Strawberry Shortcake was to die for!

I started my new work schedule at both the gym and Brith Sholom. The kids being off from school is very different. I had 5 of them at my house today since I was not working. I completely cleaned my bedroom. Moved furniture, vacuumed behind it, cleaned out my closet and drawers, and did a lot of laundry. It was nice to hear the kids laughing and having fun today. I woke up feeling very crappy. My mood has definitely changed thanks to laughter, Erika, and all the positive people I have met on facebook. They were all right on track with their postings today and what I needed to hear. Robin and my dream is to be motivational speakers together someday. There is this major feeling inside that just knows it will happen. We all have bad days. It is how we deal with them that matters. It was nice to know that Robin shares her bad days with us and doesn't pretend that things are always glorious when they aren't.

What I am thankful for today:
the new followers of HIS on Facebook
the motivational pages on Facebook that keep me in check
Erika
Jamie
Jennifer G
Diane
Heather P and Heather R
Robin
Linda...cannot wait for my appointment on Tuesday!!
Brent
Shawn
Jeremy
my family
friends
my pets
my children
laughter
inspiration
energy
quality time with those I love
positivity
creativity
facebook
Christine
my parents 40th anniversary party on Saturday
a clean bedroom
love
patience
understanding
kindness
selflessness
honesty
loyalty
faith
hope
rainbows
Pastor Tricia
VBS starting on Sunday!!
my store
my life

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Quality Time and more...

So the last time I blogged I was indeed a little negative. But I am over it. Nothing a chat with the besties and a reality check can't fix! Why do I let people get under my skin? Oh well, it is over. I had a great today with the kids. Today I wanted it to be all about them. Makenna and I enjoyed the morning at Desales and saw Sleeping Beauty with Jaymen and his grandmother. The play was adorable! After, we spent some time on Denise's farm. Jaymen was showing us all the animals. Homer the goose seems to be Denise's guard goose. He is always making sure everyone knows he is around.

Denise has invited us to her farm for feeding time where we can help feed the goats, the sheep and the chickens! Makenna is so excited!

When we got home I took the kids shopping for Father's Day gifts. We also took Diego over to Cindy and Jesse's for a playdate with their dog Toby. I will be spending a week with Toby while his family is away. I took the kids, Kayla included, to the shelter. We got to spend time with lots of new kittens. Alice sat on my lap, finally. It has been a long time. She was back to her old self smacking every cat that came within paws reach. I love that cat. We found out that the cat that is in love with Bryce is named Kutta. She is a female black/white tiger. I had her on her back tonight purring like crazy.

To end my night with the kids, Gavin and I played a board game, twice once Makenna was in bed. It was a really good day. I would have liked to have spent some time with Shawn but there is always tomorrow night.

My thing for today was to try the Teriyaki Sweet Onion Chicken at Subway. It was sooo yummy. I first heard of it on The Biggest Loser. I will definitely have that again. My 'thing for a day' is working out really well. I am trying new things and keeping an open mind. When I am feeling angry, I try to change it right away. It isn't always easy but I feel so much better when I concentrate on what makes me happy. Focus on the good. I am so blessed. I have great friends, a wonderful family, my health, my dream job, amazing kids, great pets and the most amazing boyfriend in the world. I am going to bed tonight being thankful for the quality time I had with my kids today, the quality time I had with Shawn on Tuesday, knowing that I am right where I am supposed to be every single moment, and loving where I am headed.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Warning....negative alert, into positive ending.

I really do not want to be negative after such a positive day but if I do not express my feelings, I will not be able to get back into the positive as quickly. All my life I have had at least one person who either tried to be like me or really thought they were. While some may look at this as a "Wow, she really likes who I am and wants to be like me" situation, I find it rather annoying. I look at is as, "Seriously? Get your own life." I want to be me, different than everyone else. Why would I want to constantly try to be what I am not? Or who I am not? Maybe there is a lesson for me to learn through all of this, not sure what it would be. Maybe it is the fact that my word for the year is patience and I have yet to master it fully? I get extremely annoyed when I see someone do something soon after I do. Like the idea would have NEVER entered their head until they saw me do it. So, how can I think of this in a positive manner.....

People like that are in a serious need of a reality check. It seems as though their self-esteem is still not where they say it is. I do not care how positive someone may come off on a posting, an email, a text or a blog. If they continue to follow someone else, they still are deeply insecure. So, as I say, "Get over it!" I mean that not only for the insecure SWF that continues to act as I do, but for myself. I will get over it and hopefully someday (sooner than later), she will too. If a person like that wants to act like me and do as I do then they really should start being strong enough to live their own life. God knows the only person I follow is Him. I pray that He will help me to move on from this and be able to say, "Wow, that person really likes who I am" and be happy that they do everything I do. LOL! Right now I do not like it one bit. I am proof that even the most positive people can be unhappy about situations at times. I may not be dealing with this well now but tomorrow is another day.

On a positive note, my day today was incredible. I ran with Diego for 3 miles then kayaked with my baby for 2 1/2 down Lake Nocamixon. The weather was amazing. For those who may not know, a year ago I dealt with a huge fear of being in water that I could not see the bottom of. Because of Shawn, his confidence in me and his patience with me, I have fully overcome that fear. I am so glad Shawn ended up having the day off. He was so excited to be able to see me in the daylight today. It is as funny as it sounds but we never see each other when the sun is up.

We are going to start running together on the new trail. He has been admiring the physical shape I am in and has asked me to help him get in better shape too. He was so sweet in saying that I inspire him to be a better person. He feeds off my motivation (instead of sucking it dry like some people). We both feel that we are each others equal. This is the first time I have ever felt that with any man. I feel it with my friends though. Never do I allow anyone to make me feel less than they are or less than I feel about myself. I thank God every day for my confidence and the power to be me and different than everyone else. So thankful I have found a network of friends, co-workers, and my man, who all love me just the way I am. We are all growing, learning life's lessons. Find what makes you happy and go with it. When something ticks you off, get over it! Sing that song, "La La La whatever...La La La doesn't mater". Be yourself.

What I am thankful for today:
the power to change your mood
my friends and family
the amazing hugs, kisses and I love you's that I received today from my niece and nephew
kayaking
the beautiful day today!
quality time with Shawn
capitalization (especially the letter I) LOL!!!!!!!!!!!!
energy
the views today on the water
Sleeping Beauty on Thurs. with Makenna and Jaymen
Kempton Fair this weekend...GOOD LUCK DAD!
having the family over for dinner on Father's Day
blooming flowers
the rain
my kids
Cheryl
Diane (thank you for allowing me to use your computer!)
random acts of kindness
sleep
my jobs
laughter
hope
faith
blessings
true love
the amazing rainbow that Shawn called to tell me about tonight. He knows me well!

Saturday, June 11, 2011

My "Big" New Thing for Today

Honestly I had no intentions of going to my 20th class reunion. Mostly because I have made peace with my high school bully and I really wanted to take the night to chill with my kids. This past week was soooo super busy for me with work. My friend Chris, Andrea and Sue were bugging me....mostly Sue.....to come. Andrea was home from Hawaii with her husband Dave and Chris really wanted to see me and Shawn. After talking with Shawn, we decided that we should go. My "big" thing today was going somewhere that I really didn't want too. However, being greeted with tons of hugs from people I seriously have not seen for 20 years was so awesome.

Steve told me that his mom found a shoe box full of notes that apparently him and I wrote back and forth during P.O.D., the most boring class in the world. I cannot believe he saved them all. Then Ken told me that the other day he found a box of letters that I wrote to him while he was away in college. He said that when he would receive one of my letters it was like Christmas. I miss those days. Ken and I were really close. I am glad I could make him so happy during his time away from home.

Jenna, Me and Steve

Chris looks exactly the same, just as most of us do. Jodi is coming home in July and we are getting together. Jenna is pregnant with twins!! Her and I reminisced about the crazy things her sister did to me. Jenna would do anything to get Kristen in trouble. Steve is the same silly man that I once sat behind and slept through class. LOL!

Jenna, Me, Steve and Jodi (she put her hair high like old times...LOL!)

Andrea and I, we were best buds forever. She reminded me of a time where she would come over and ride go-carts with me at my parents house. In a lighting storm she was panicking because she could not get the go-cart up the hill fast enough. She said she loved being at my house. It was sooooooo awesome to see her and Dave. And then there is Sue. She and I got along really well in school too. Although she was quiet and kept to herself, she was always so nice to me. And, she is no longer quiet nor does she keep to herself. LOL!

Andrea, Me & Sue

There will be a better picture to follow since Ken was there with all of his gear. Shawn took this one which is a little blurry since he was far away. This human pyramid was Andrea's idea.

Me (on top of Trey), Dave, Marybeth, Andrea K, Kim, Stacy, Chris M., Melissa, Sue, Kelly, Glennie, Chris, Andrea, Todd, Emily, John

I felt so comfortable knowing that each person there was so thankful I came. I was not sure the response I would get. There is a lot I do not remember about high school because I was so stressed out. Everyone I talked too reminded me of awesome memories. Peggy had a great one in which I will not talk about since it was personal girly stuff. It was just amazing to know that we were all going through things very similar just dealing with them very differently. I will definitely go to my next reunion. And, I will be keeping in touch with everyone I have missed these past 20 years.