I woke up today with a smile on my face. Being that I am not a morning person, this is very rare! LOL! However, I had a great day yesterday with the kids and last night with Diane. I also know that I have so many things to be thankful for. Makenna and I cut sunflowers out of the front yard yesterday and made a nice arrangement in a vase for the dining room table. She loves to help me garden. I am so thankful that she is interested in one of my passions. I want her to be well rounded and appreciate the little things in life. Also yesterday I got a beautiful card from Jen. It is wonderful to read words of inspiration and friendship that are written for you. I am thankful that she is in my life and able to express her feelings about our friendship. Jamie and I had a few heart to heart talks yesterday which only make me realize more and more that she is my best friend. Not everyone experiences the true bond of a soul-mate. Jamie and I know that we are meant to be in each others lives and that we are soul-mates. No matter what, we are always there for each other and make it a point to tell each other that....sometimes without words. I am so thankful for Jamie.
Diane and I went grocery shopping last night and took Makenna. I am so thankful that I can take Makenna anywhere. She was awesome. In fact she had Diane laughing and telling me that she will take her shopping any time. We were at Giant for well over two hours and Makenna was an angel. Last night when I was laying with her she kept telling me that she loved me. I am so thankful that my children are affectionate and expressive about their feelings. I am also thankful for being able to spend time with Diane. Mostly, I am thankful that she is not only my neighbor but also one of my best friends. I appreciate her more than she knows.
While being outside yesterday Bonnie my neighbor, walked up to me and said she had something for me. She gave me the biggest hug and started crying. She thanked me for being an inspiration to her and for listening to her and motivating her. I had no idea that I did this for her. Over the past year she has been going through a very difficult time. We would sit outside and talk, I would listen mostly while she talked to me about her 'not so great' childhood. I felt sad for her. I am so thankful that she got so much out of me and considers me an inspiration to her.
Shawn called me yesterday to tell me that he is so thankful for me and my positive energy. He blames me for his positive life changes which have been escalating in the past few weeks. Now enjoying all the things he once loved but could not get into, he is back on the right track and all things good are flowing into his life. He says I am his sunshine...LOL! This makes me laugh since Nancy from the salon calls me Suzie Sunshine. People call me just to hear my voice, and make a point to tell me that. Buffy once said that it is my laughter that she totally enjoys. Jen says it is my loyalty and support. Bonnie says it is the fact that I listen. There are so many things people tell me about myself that I never would have even taken notice too. This is just who I am now and it seems to benefit me and all those around me.
I am not sure what it was about yesterday but people were just thanking me and complimenting me and my positive energy. Could it be me showing gratitude every chance I get? Absolutely. Now that I am fulfilled within, I am able to give more than I ever could have in the past. People are feeding off my positive energy all the time. I am able to be an inspiration to those around me because I feel blessed and happy on the inside. A year ago, I did not feel that way. My heart, mind, body and spirit are healing each and every day. I only hope and pray that everyone can one day can feel the spiritual healing, confidence, and gratitude that I do. Everyone deserves a good life, but a lot of people do not feel deserving of one. I pray for those around me every night before bed. May God relieve the stress and anxiety of those around me. May God heal those who are in pain. May God lead everyone down the positive path of life. My God grant health and happiness to all who are in my life. May God give those who feel weak the confidence they need to be strong. May God help aid those who feel empty inside and fill them with the love for themselves that they are lacking. May everyone around me realize that it is the simple things in life that are much larger than anything that money can buy.
What I am thankful for today:
my amazing day yesterday
the gratitude and appreciate people are showing me
my ability to give so much to others now that I am fulfilled within
my children
my arrangement of sunflowers
the card from Jen
time with my friends and my children
Makenna helping me clean yesterday
my class tonight
being an inspiration to others
hugs
tears of happiness and appreciation
my mom getting Gavin stuff for school
self healing
the simple things in life
time to paint mine and Makenna's nails yesterday
God
the power of prayer
my positive attitude
laughter
love
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Melinda and the Scrapping the Music Song for This Week
My intention was to blog about my day yesterday with Melinda and the kids but I am only going to touch a little about it. Yesterday was awesome. I look up to Melinda and her husband so much. I admire everything about them. Not only are they very successful business people but they have an amazing relationship. With their strong faith in God, the way they raise their children, the amazing way they communicate with each other, the trust they have in one another, and the fact that they are truly best friends.....only makes me want what they have. Out of every couple I know, I admire them the most. They honestly treat each other as an equal.
Alyssa and I played Wii Fit and had a blast! Josh and Alyssa have turned out to be such wonderful children. They are fun, helpful, considerate and very well rounded. I love that they are so willing to try just about anything and have SO much motivation. They are so much like their parents. The entire family is so giving and so grateful. I am so thankful and blessed to have them as a part of my and my kids life.
Anyway, my blog is about this awesome new song that is the Scrapping the Music Challenge. It was brought to my attention when one of the team members left a comment under my last blog. She said that because of my life, I will be able to relate to this song tremendously. It makes me feel really good to know that I can be an inspiration to people I have never even met just from them reading my blog. I read the lyrics and she was right on.
More Beautiful You
Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight
Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are
There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you
Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead
Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And he'll treat you like the jewel you are
So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who's strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl
WOW. I was always one as a teen to feel fat, not good enough, and so on. As a young adult I always wanted someone to love me because I really didn't love myself. I can TOTALLY relate to this song. I now know that no matter how much someone loves you, if you do not love yourself your relationship will never work. Finally after 36 years, I do love myself. No it is not in a conceited way. I love that I am able to give more, love more, laugh more and still feel fulfilled inside. My friends stick around because of my positive energy and willingness to give. They stay by my side because I am a selfless person who loves to love and constantly shows gratitude. Because they are like me, I chose to stay by their side as well. It is a give-give situation. I do not call my friends only when I feel I need them. At this point in my life I do not feel in need of anything. It is nice to be able to want something and not feel that you NEED it. It is nice to not have attachments to things or people but instead admire them. I WANT my friends in my life and I know they know that. I am very blessed to have so many wonderful, inspiring people to be surrounded by. My children are blessed as well to be surrounded by many people who love them. If they see Mommy showing gratitude and feeling love within, they will learn to love themselves and be thankful as well.
What I am thankful for today:
A wonderful weekend with Jamie
time with Melinda and the kids yesterday
Melinda and Marty
the ability to love myself
my children and their health and happiness
Judy's card class tonight
my courage
the ability to want and not need
having a Queen sized bed all to myself
feeling content
the love I feel from my children and my friends
appreciation
Diane and Rudy (another couple I admire greatly)
being able to spend so much time with my children
self healing
the ability to live my life the best way I know how
knowing that time heals and that everything happens for a reason
the peacefullness I feel within that grows every day
my health
the safety of my children and myself
Realizing that God made me perfect in his eyes and people will love me just the way I am.
Alyssa and I played Wii Fit and had a blast! Josh and Alyssa have turned out to be such wonderful children. They are fun, helpful, considerate and very well rounded. I love that they are so willing to try just about anything and have SO much motivation. They are so much like their parents. The entire family is so giving and so grateful. I am so thankful and blessed to have them as a part of my and my kids life.
Anyway, my blog is about this awesome new song that is the Scrapping the Music Challenge. It was brought to my attention when one of the team members left a comment under my last blog. She said that because of my life, I will be able to relate to this song tremendously. It makes me feel really good to know that I can be an inspiration to people I have never even met just from them reading my blog. I read the lyrics and she was right on.
More Beautiful You
Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight
Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are
There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you
Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead
Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And he'll treat you like the jewel you are
So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who's strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl
WOW. I was always one as a teen to feel fat, not good enough, and so on. As a young adult I always wanted someone to love me because I really didn't love myself. I can TOTALLY relate to this song. I now know that no matter how much someone loves you, if you do not love yourself your relationship will never work. Finally after 36 years, I do love myself. No it is not in a conceited way. I love that I am able to give more, love more, laugh more and still feel fulfilled inside. My friends stick around because of my positive energy and willingness to give. They stay by my side because I am a selfless person who loves to love and constantly shows gratitude. Because they are like me, I chose to stay by their side as well. It is a give-give situation. I do not call my friends only when I feel I need them. At this point in my life I do not feel in need of anything. It is nice to be able to want something and not feel that you NEED it. It is nice to not have attachments to things or people but instead admire them. I WANT my friends in my life and I know they know that. I am very blessed to have so many wonderful, inspiring people to be surrounded by. My children are blessed as well to be surrounded by many people who love them. If they see Mommy showing gratitude and feeling love within, they will learn to love themselves and be thankful as well.
What I am thankful for today:
A wonderful weekend with Jamie
time with Melinda and the kids yesterday
Melinda and Marty
the ability to love myself
my children and their health and happiness
Judy's card class tonight
my courage
the ability to want and not need
having a Queen sized bed all to myself
feeling content
the love I feel from my children and my friends
appreciation
Diane and Rudy (another couple I admire greatly)
being able to spend so much time with my children
self healing
the ability to live my life the best way I know how
knowing that time heals and that everything happens for a reason
the peacefullness I feel within that grows every day
my health
the safety of my children and myself
Realizing that God made me perfect in his eyes and people will love me just the way I am.
Thursday, August 6, 2009
An Awesome Therapy Session
Yesterday I had therapy. It was a very good session for one very good reason.... my therapist is very happy with my progress. Every time I see her she says she sees more positive changes. Yesterday I made sure to tell her about my self healing. I have been doing a lot of soul searching lately. In the last few weeks I have been taking the time to go over my past, my choices, my patterns, etc. Once again I will say that I feel that there are no mistakes and I have no regrets about the choices I have made. I would not be where I am today if I didn't choose the paths I had.
I now truly believe that we are able to heal ourselves; spiritually, emotionally, physically and mentally. I have always looked for someone to fix me. Whether it be a doctor, a therapist, a friend, a lover. I never knew that we could heal on our own. No pill or relationship will fix me. All it does is mask the issues. Now I am willing to do what it takes to heal on my own. In the last few months I have come a very long way. Where once I would run from confrontation, I now face it. I have completely changed the way I communicate. This is a big step for me. I also have stopped allowing people's words to scare and/or hurt me. I keep telling myself that there are always going to be things I do not want to hear. But it is just words and I keep telling myself that. When people are voicing their opinions, I do not have to allow it to stress me out. Just because they have different views on things doesn't mean I have to agree with them or take it personally. This has made me so much stronger. Where once there was panic attacks, is now a peacefulness. Little did I know that anxiety is instilled in us as we are growing up. Whether it be a parent or another mentor, the way they handle stress is the way we think we should as adults. I want my children to be more laid back, less stressed about the little things, and not worry like I always did.
My therapist is the most un-opinionated therapist that I was ever to. I love that she listens, points things out, and understands. I feel a great connection with her because she is allowing me to find out who I am without making me feel I should be a certain way. I love that she wants me to continue to be ME. She is always addressing the positivity in my life, how far I have come, and how I continue to heal myself every day. She is not there to tell me if I am wrong or right. She agrees that we all make the right decision for ourselves and we should not allow outside influences to alter our choices.
I left feeling even more peaceful and more confident. I love who I am, whether or not everyone else does....I really do not care. This Amy Grant song sums it up for me:
All I Ever Have To Be
When the weight of all my dreams
Is resting heavy on my head,
And the thoughtful words of health and hope
Have all been nicely said.
But I'm still hurting,
Wondering if Ill ever be
The one I think I am.
I think I am.
Then you gently re-remind me
That you've made me from the first,
And the more I try to be the best
The more I get the worst.
And I realize the good in me,
Is only there because of who you are.
Who you are...
And all I ever have to be
Is what you've made me.
Any more or less would be a step
Out of your plan.
As you daily recreate me,
Help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do
What I can find.
And all I ever have to be
All I have to be
All I ever have to be
Is what you've made me.
What I am thankful for today:
therapy
Amy Grant
my children
jumping on the trampoline last night with the kids
the power heal ourselves
the power to believe
faith
courage
Melinda
sleeping until 9am this morning with Makenna
people who are so willing to help others without expecting anything in return
a wonderful night's sleep last night
being down 17 lbs!!
garlic bread
a beautiful day today
laughter
smiles
I now truly believe that we are able to heal ourselves; spiritually, emotionally, physically and mentally. I have always looked for someone to fix me. Whether it be a doctor, a therapist, a friend, a lover. I never knew that we could heal on our own. No pill or relationship will fix me. All it does is mask the issues. Now I am willing to do what it takes to heal on my own. In the last few months I have come a very long way. Where once I would run from confrontation, I now face it. I have completely changed the way I communicate. This is a big step for me. I also have stopped allowing people's words to scare and/or hurt me. I keep telling myself that there are always going to be things I do not want to hear. But it is just words and I keep telling myself that. When people are voicing their opinions, I do not have to allow it to stress me out. Just because they have different views on things doesn't mean I have to agree with them or take it personally. This has made me so much stronger. Where once there was panic attacks, is now a peacefulness. Little did I know that anxiety is instilled in us as we are growing up. Whether it be a parent or another mentor, the way they handle stress is the way we think we should as adults. I want my children to be more laid back, less stressed about the little things, and not worry like I always did.
My therapist is the most un-opinionated therapist that I was ever to. I love that she listens, points things out, and understands. I feel a great connection with her because she is allowing me to find out who I am without making me feel I should be a certain way. I love that she wants me to continue to be ME. She is always addressing the positivity in my life, how far I have come, and how I continue to heal myself every day. She is not there to tell me if I am wrong or right. She agrees that we all make the right decision for ourselves and we should not allow outside influences to alter our choices.
I left feeling even more peaceful and more confident. I love who I am, whether or not everyone else does....I really do not care. This Amy Grant song sums it up for me:
All I Ever Have To Be
When the weight of all my dreams
Is resting heavy on my head,
And the thoughtful words of health and hope
Have all been nicely said.
But I'm still hurting,
Wondering if Ill ever be
The one I think I am.
I think I am.
Then you gently re-remind me
That you've made me from the first,
And the more I try to be the best
The more I get the worst.
And I realize the good in me,
Is only there because of who you are.
Who you are...
And all I ever have to be
Is what you've made me.
Any more or less would be a step
Out of your plan.
As you daily recreate me,
Help me always keep in mind
That I only have to do
What I can find.
And all I ever have to be
All I have to be
All I ever have to be
Is what you've made me.
What I am thankful for today:
therapy
Amy Grant
my children
jumping on the trampoline last night with the kids
the power heal ourselves
the power to believe
faith
courage
Melinda
sleeping until 9am this morning with Makenna
people who are so willing to help others without expecting anything in return
a wonderful night's sleep last night
being down 17 lbs!!
garlic bread
a beautiful day today
laughter
smiles
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Live and Learn
This is the quote I received today from Belief.net:
Learn as if you were going to live forever. Live as if you were going to die tomorrow.
- Mahatma Gandhi
Every day, I try to learn... whether it be from my children, my friends, things I read and so on. The knowledge we can learn is unlimited. This is why I try to keep an open mind. There are so many out there who are close minded and do not allow room for new information and new possibilities. The possibilities for us are endless. I feel that I now live my life using all the past experiences I have learned. However, I do not allow my past experiences to control how I live. Does that make sense? You live by experience but you also learn by experience. I have no regrets from my past decisions and feel that I have learned a lot from them. A very wise person recently said to me, "You must stand up for what you believe in, no matter what anyone else thinks." I have noticed in the past that I have allowed outsiders interfere with my decisions in life. I cared way too much what others would think or say. Now I finally feel strong enough to not allow outsiders affect my decisions. Maybe this is because I am a stronger person, and I have been trying to live as if each day was my last. Life is seriously too short to worry about what others think. When I feel the brunt of someones criticism, I just tell myself that they will get over it and this is my life. If I feel that I am making the right decisions, who has the right to tell me otherwise? They are not able to get inside of me to see and feel what makes me happy. I am just going to live every day as if it was my last. If I am happy then those around me will be happy. And, hopefully those who do not understand my decisions will eventually be able to embrace my happiness as well.
What I am thankful for today:
support from those who care about me
the ability to not allow others opinions to control my decisions
my awesome kids
spending time with Jamie on Saturday night
seeing Annie on Monday
Makenna doing the 'newest' Electric Slide yesterday...LOL!
my new dress for Tanya's wedding (thank you Diane and Jenny for the Kohl's gift card!)
the entire day with my kids today
therapy tomorrow
my overabundance of time and energy
visits from Mimi and Pop-Pop (who I know are helping to guide me throughout my life)
my new Premier earrings from Beth's show!!
Gavin and Makenna's silly faces
each and every new day
Learn as if you were going to live forever. Live as if you were going to die tomorrow.
- Mahatma Gandhi
Every day, I try to learn... whether it be from my children, my friends, things I read and so on. The knowledge we can learn is unlimited. This is why I try to keep an open mind. There are so many out there who are close minded and do not allow room for new information and new possibilities. The possibilities for us are endless. I feel that I now live my life using all the past experiences I have learned. However, I do not allow my past experiences to control how I live. Does that make sense? You live by experience but you also learn by experience. I have no regrets from my past decisions and feel that I have learned a lot from them. A very wise person recently said to me, "You must stand up for what you believe in, no matter what anyone else thinks." I have noticed in the past that I have allowed outsiders interfere with my decisions in life. I cared way too much what others would think or say. Now I finally feel strong enough to not allow outsiders affect my decisions. Maybe this is because I am a stronger person, and I have been trying to live as if each day was my last. Life is seriously too short to worry about what others think. When I feel the brunt of someones criticism, I just tell myself that they will get over it and this is my life. If I feel that I am making the right decisions, who has the right to tell me otherwise? They are not able to get inside of me to see and feel what makes me happy. I am just going to live every day as if it was my last. If I am happy then those around me will be happy. And, hopefully those who do not understand my decisions will eventually be able to embrace my happiness as well.
What I am thankful for today:
support from those who care about me
the ability to not allow others opinions to control my decisions
my awesome kids
spending time with Jamie on Saturday night
seeing Annie on Monday
Makenna doing the 'newest' Electric Slide yesterday...LOL!
my new dress for Tanya's wedding (thank you Diane and Jenny for the Kohl's gift card!)
the entire day with my kids today
therapy tomorrow
my overabundance of time and energy
visits from Mimi and Pop-Pop (who I know are helping to guide me throughout my life)
my new Premier earrings from Beth's show!!
Gavin and Makenna's silly faces
each and every new day
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