Last night I was lucky enough to get a free therapy session from my neighbor Rudy. I have a few in my life who have experienced lots of life lessons and he is one of them. I value his philosophy on life and I enjoy hearing it, especially while eating chocolate pudding pie.....LOL! Thank you for the pie Diane! Rudy has been married 4 times. I guess it just takes some of us longer than others to get to the right person. He feels like I do, you have to go through these experiences to get to where you want to be. Do I look down on him or being married 4 times, absolutely not. Who am I to judge the decisions he has made. All I know is that he is now completely happy in his life and that is all that matters. As we all know that when one is happy, they make everyone around them happy as well.
What I learned from his talk last night was that I need to stand up for myself. I also need to stand up for what I believe in. I believe in happiness and I believe that we all need to fill ourselves up in order to spread our happiness to others. I was under the assumption that filling ourselves up was selfish. This is why I spent my entire life so far trying to make others happy while feeling very empty inside. I gave all I had until I ended up with nothing and in a depression. Then of course almost everyone left my side because I had nothing left to give..... except for my true friends.
Right now, I am going to concentrate on myself. With no commitments, no obligations, no promises to anyone but myself. This is the first time I am able to say that I am completely fine with being alone. It is the first time that I am free of fear, free of insecurity and can feel complete by myself. I will be so much more ready to face any relationship that comes my way. And I know that I have a wonderful life in store for me. And, whoever ends up by my side through life will feel that happiness and positivity that I now feel. Nothing is more wonderful than being able to spread your joy. However, we HAVE to feel it inside ourselves.....first.
What I am thankful for today:
Rudy
Diane
my free therapy session last night
Crop for a Cure today!!
chocolate pudding pie
Redi-Whip
long talks
my health
my happiness
the happiness of my family & friends
music
creative people
intelligent people
open mindedness
freedom
my courage
my faith
Saturday, July 25, 2009
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Fear & Depression
My daily teaching today is: When you are afraid of something happening, by law you attract it, although fortunately it takes real focus and persistent fear to bring it to you. The amount of emotion you invest in not wanting something to happen is powerful. At the same time it is also impossible to bring what you want when you hold so much fear about the outcome you don't want.
Remove your personal investment of fear from what you don't want to happen, and now use that powerful energy and direct it to what you want.
No matter what you have been thinking or feeling, your power to create something new is NOW.
Well, it is time to get rid of any fear I have, huh? As I think about it I am so not fearful of anything right now. I know that God has a wonderful life in store for me. All I need to do is keep the faith and believe. I liked this teaching and wanted to share it since we all know what it is like to have fear.
A perfect example of this happening is my friend Shawn. For the past couple of months he has been very fearful of his health and his depression. Although his intentions are good in wanting to get better, his fear took over. He is depressed again and suffering very badly from it. Thankfully he has me to understand what he is going through and he still continues to call me even though he is avoiding all of his other friends. I am the only one who doesn't judge him, criticize him, or put him down. And, because he feeds off my positive energy he does feel like a new person when he is done talking to me. However, this is something that he needs to go to his doctor for. It will not bother me if I have to drag him there. I know he wants to be better and I know all he needs is support from someone who understands. And, I also know that he will not be angry with me because he knows that I will only do what is best for him.
My take on all of this is to turn your fear into positive thoughts. Or, say a prayer and ask God to relieve you of your fears and fill you up with positive thoughts. It has worked for me.
What I am thankful for today:
My full class going on as I write
the ladies laughing
my surprise party last night (thank you ladies!)
Carvel ice cream cake
my busy weekend
my friends
creativity
positive influences
laughing so hard that my stomach hurts
F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Dvd's
my courage
my strength
Heat Miser (HA HA HA!)
the birthday presents from my friends
my children
time to scrapbook on Saturday with my gals
Diane for watching Makenna for a little yesterday while I ran PartyLite books around town.
PartyLite
Remove your personal investment of fear from what you don't want to happen, and now use that powerful energy and direct it to what you want.
No matter what you have been thinking or feeling, your power to create something new is NOW.
Well, it is time to get rid of any fear I have, huh? As I think about it I am so not fearful of anything right now. I know that God has a wonderful life in store for me. All I need to do is keep the faith and believe. I liked this teaching and wanted to share it since we all know what it is like to have fear.
A perfect example of this happening is my friend Shawn. For the past couple of months he has been very fearful of his health and his depression. Although his intentions are good in wanting to get better, his fear took over. He is depressed again and suffering very badly from it. Thankfully he has me to understand what he is going through and he still continues to call me even though he is avoiding all of his other friends. I am the only one who doesn't judge him, criticize him, or put him down. And, because he feeds off my positive energy he does feel like a new person when he is done talking to me. However, this is something that he needs to go to his doctor for. It will not bother me if I have to drag him there. I know he wants to be better and I know all he needs is support from someone who understands. And, I also know that he will not be angry with me because he knows that I will only do what is best for him.
My take on all of this is to turn your fear into positive thoughts. Or, say a prayer and ask God to relieve you of your fears and fill you up with positive thoughts. It has worked for me.
What I am thankful for today:
My full class going on as I write
the ladies laughing
my surprise party last night (thank you ladies!)
Carvel ice cream cake
my busy weekend
my friends
creativity
positive influences
laughing so hard that my stomach hurts
F.R.I.E.N.D.S. Dvd's
my courage
my strength
Heat Miser (HA HA HA!)
the birthday presents from my friends
my children
time to scrapbook on Saturday with my gals
Diane for watching Makenna for a little yesterday while I ran PartyLite books around town.
PartyLite
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
It's My Life
Through Diane this morning..LOL...the song "It's My life" was mentioned to me. Lately I have been feeling like I have to prove myself to people. I have been feeling the weight of being judged, which was the reason for my last blog. I try to keep in mind that this is a problem that other people have within themselves and that they are the ones who have to learn to deal with it. If it wasn't for therapy I would have never realized that. We are who we are and not everyone has to agree with us and the direction we take in life. Knowing that in The Secret it states that we all make the proper decisions for ourselves (cannot mention that quote enough lately) there will still be those opinionated people who have to put in their two cents. It is how we chose to deal with it that makes a difference. For the past couple of days, I have been stuck with this weight laying heavy on my heart and having a hard time letting go of it. So, last night I chose to write in my Gratitude Book then I said a prayer. I prayed that God will relieve me of this burden. I prayed that he will lead me in the direction of my dreams, a life that is perfect for me and my children. I prayed that he surrounds me with people who support me whether or not they agree with my decisions. I prayed that I feel a balance of energy and am overflowed with positive thoughts and energy. Most of the times I fall asleep in the middle of praying but last night I managed to get it all out. I know I needed it. Today, I woke up feeling much better and feeling less heaviness on my heart. God will walk me through life as long as I allow him too. I can make no mistakes for nothing is a mistake...everything happens for a reason. This is MY life and the only one who can live it is me.
It's My Life By Bon Jovi
This ain't a song for the brokenhearted
No silent prayer for the faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky, gotta make your own breaks
It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life
You better stand tall
When they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break
Baby, don't back down
It's my life
It's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!
What I am thankful for today:
Diane
feeling better today
the power of prayer
rain
my new Partylite catalogs
getting together with the girls tonight
Jamie
Jenny
Shawn
Jen
Heather
Buffy
Melinda
my children
getting the Scrapping the Music Challenge done yesterday
Thursday night's class being full
the messages we get through music
a great night's sleep last night
a great day today!
It's My Life By Bon Jovi
This ain't a song for the brokenhearted
No silent prayer for the faith departed
And I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice when I shout it out loud
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life
This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder, make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky, gotta make your own breaks
It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life
You better stand tall
When they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break
Baby, don't back down
It's my life
It's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just wanna live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said, "I did it my way"
I just wanna live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life!
What I am thankful for today:
Diane
feeling better today
the power of prayer
rain
my new Partylite catalogs
getting together with the girls tonight
Jamie
Jenny
Shawn
Jen
Heather
Buffy
Melinda
my children
getting the Scrapping the Music Challenge done yesterday
Thursday night's class being full
the messages we get through music
a great night's sleep last night
a great day today!
Monday, July 20, 2009
Nickelback & A Great Quote
AHHHH! I am so excited! The Scrapping the Music Challenge this week is a NICKELBACK SONG!!! WHOO HOOO!!!!! And, the song (If Today Was Your Last Day) is one of my favorites considering its inspirational words and meaning! Nickelback sang this song at their concert in which was one of the best times of my life! I cannot wait to get to the store tomorrow and start pondering ideas for my layout.
In recent weeks my life has had some major twists and turns. No worries, everything was good. My quote for my life at this point is: Everything happens as it is supposed to, there are no accidents, and we are where we are supposed to be.
Believe it or not, I found it on facebook. I always used to worry about what other people would say, think, or how they would judge me. After reading the Secret, I know that those who judge people only bring more judgement onto them. No one can understand how each individual person feels inside and no one may ever understand the choices they make. But it isn't up to us to decide what is best for another person. We all have our own experiences and we all handle them differently. This is not to be judged because all of us have different opinions. Keep in mind that we always make the best choices for ourselves whether it feels wrong or right. It will get us to where we need to be in life whether others agree with it or not. Personally at almost 36 years old, I will follow my heart, using my head, and get to where I want to be. I appreciate concerns of others but appreciate support even more. Those who do not agree will get over it. I know I have lots of awesome things in store for my future. How I get there, doesn't really matter. "Against the grain should be the way of life, what's worth the prize is always worth the fight" lyrics from the If Today Was Your Last Day by Nickelback. Those who are still by my side when my dreams are achieved are my true cheerleaders of life.
What I am thankful for today:
Nickelback
inspirational quotes and music
homemade blueberry pie
my friends
my family
Zachary being so well behaved this weekend
Diane
Jenny
Jamie
Jen
Buffy
(Just a few of my cheerleaders...LOL!)
the kids laughter
being able to run 3/4 mile now
compliments on my biceps...LOL! Man did I blush...and drop things.
the kids singing in the car
getting 4 loads of laundry done today so far
English Muffin pizzas (lunch today)
love bugs and healthy side affects..LOL! (HA HA Diane!)
hats for bad hair days
an awesome future for me and my kids
each and every new day
In recent weeks my life has had some major twists and turns. No worries, everything was good. My quote for my life at this point is: Everything happens as it is supposed to, there are no accidents, and we are where we are supposed to be.
Believe it or not, I found it on facebook. I always used to worry about what other people would say, think, or how they would judge me. After reading the Secret, I know that those who judge people only bring more judgement onto them. No one can understand how each individual person feels inside and no one may ever understand the choices they make. But it isn't up to us to decide what is best for another person. We all have our own experiences and we all handle them differently. This is not to be judged because all of us have different opinions. Keep in mind that we always make the best choices for ourselves whether it feels wrong or right. It will get us to where we need to be in life whether others agree with it or not. Personally at almost 36 years old, I will follow my heart, using my head, and get to where I want to be. I appreciate concerns of others but appreciate support even more. Those who do not agree will get over it. I know I have lots of awesome things in store for my future. How I get there, doesn't really matter. "Against the grain should be the way of life, what's worth the prize is always worth the fight" lyrics from the If Today Was Your Last Day by Nickelback. Those who are still by my side when my dreams are achieved are my true cheerleaders of life.
What I am thankful for today:
Nickelback
inspirational quotes and music
homemade blueberry pie
my friends
my family
Zachary being so well behaved this weekend
Diane
Jenny
Jamie
Jen
Buffy
(Just a few of my cheerleaders...LOL!)
the kids laughter
being able to run 3/4 mile now
compliments on my biceps...LOL! Man did I blush...and drop things.
the kids singing in the car
getting 4 loads of laundry done today so far
English Muffin pizzas (lunch today)
love bugs and healthy side affects..LOL! (HA HA Diane!)
hats for bad hair days
an awesome future for me and my kids
each and every new day
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