Rudy once said to me, "No matter what anyone thinks, no matter what anyone says, you absolutely must stand up to whatever it is that YOU believe in." With this running through my head, I think to myself...what do I believe in? I know that giving is something that I completely believe in doing since it is so much more fulfilling than receiving. (At least it is to me.) I also believe in loyalty. Being in a position many times where I have felt the wrath of being stabbed in the back from someone who you may think is a true friend. I have had people say that no matter what they would always be there for me. Then I around and they are no where to be found. I am sure I have had my turn of not being as loyal as I should have been. Life experiences have taught me that loyalty is very important. Friendship is something that I completely believe in. Life would get pretty darn lonely without friends. And, it seems as though when you are at your lowest point, your true friends are the ones who are still by your side. They are the ones who are completely loyal and very giving. Freedom is of course another huge thing. There are so many things that I know I would fight for to the end. These mentioned are only a few of them.
One of the biggest things I believe in is love. The love I have for my children is like no other love I could have ever experienced. I always have said that with the love of my kids, I feel like I could take on the world. Being a mom does turn us women into a different being. Someone recently told me how much they respect mothers. They respect mothers because we gain these super powers that men will never gain. One is the power to multi task the other is the power to stand up to anyone. I have mastered the multi tasking LOL! Standing up to anyone....well, I am working on it. If they get in the way of my children, you better believe that I will open my mouth. However, when my feelings are hurt I find it difficult to tell the person how I feel. I am working on this in therapy. Feeling judged and criticised, it is not easy for me to express how sad I am to the people who are being so judgemental. I know in time things will be fine. So I guess all I need is time? I keep reminding myself that it is just words...just words...... And, once again that those being judgemental are only bringing on more judgement onto themselves.
The next thing I believe in completely is happiness. Everyone deserves to be happy and no one in this world can know what will fulfill another person. And, it is no one's business on why something makes someone happy. Like Jen reminded me today, "You always tell me that it doesn't matter what anyone else thinks." These are words I always say to her. Funny how sometimes we need to re-hear our own advice. She is right...well, I am right...LOL! It may hurt when you find out someone doesn't agree with your choices, or that they are discussing your personal life behind your back. The important thing to remember is that IT DOESN'T MATTER! So, my advice today: don't worry, be happy. And, do not allow other people's opinions to alter your decisions. They do not live your life....you do. And remember to stand up for what you believe in...no matter what. How is that for being strong? LOL!
What I am thankful for today:
my children
my friends
love
laughter
Feels Like Heaven (love that movie!)
faith
getting in 3 walks today!
the park and lunch today with Makenna, Jen and Tanner
Gavin enjoying his 1st day of school
strength
courage
happiness
loyalty
freedom
giving
selflessness
being a mommy
time with my kids
a beautiful day today
an appointment with the Healing Place tomorrow
my store
new customers
my enormous mums
the sunshine
hugs
Monday, August 31, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
Compliments and Simple Things
Let me start by saying Thank You to whoever posted the very nice comment under my last blog. It isn't often one hears compliments like that, even more so from a complete stranger. Again, I thank you. It is greatly appreciated.
Never have I taken compliments well. I am thinking it is because I had a hard time believing them. It also has to do with those people who are very self-centered and so confident in their appearance, their material items, their money and so on that they come off as being very snooty. Never did I want to emit those feelings to anyone. I feel very confident in myself in every aspect where once I did not. However, people tell me all the time that I send out positive vibes and not conceited ones. WHEW! I am thankful that I am surrounded by people who are just like me. I take a huge look at my friends and none of them expect compliments or praise. All of them find joy in the simple things in life and know that it is the small things that end up being the most meaningful and important in the long run.
I am thankful for these simple things in my life:
time with my children
time alone
time with my friends
laughter
love
nature; rainbows, sunsets, the ocean, the sand, flowers, etc.
creativity
imagination
inspiration
sleep
coffee
music
bare feet
smiles
hugs
motivation
my health
the health of my children
confidence
strength
painted toes
sea shells
the sunshine
the rain
Boston cream donuts
my pets
candles (PartyLite of course!)
the smell of Christmas
contentment
my free spirit
each new day
every new lesson learned
clean laundry right out of the dryer
"I love you's" (thanks Jamie for telling me every single day.)
a clean house and the productive feeling you get once you are done
gardening
scrapbooking
long walks
long talks
a working computer
pictures
funny movies
breeze on a hot summer day
kindness
thoughtfulness
selflessness
signs from above
dreams
goals
and the power to accomplish both
Never have I taken compliments well. I am thinking it is because I had a hard time believing them. It also has to do with those people who are very self-centered and so confident in their appearance, their material items, their money and so on that they come off as being very snooty. Never did I want to emit those feelings to anyone. I feel very confident in myself in every aspect where once I did not. However, people tell me all the time that I send out positive vibes and not conceited ones. WHEW! I am thankful that I am surrounded by people who are just like me. I take a huge look at my friends and none of them expect compliments or praise. All of them find joy in the simple things in life and know that it is the small things that end up being the most meaningful and important in the long run.
I am thankful for these simple things in my life:
time with my children
time alone
time with my friends
laughter
love
nature; rainbows, sunsets, the ocean, the sand, flowers, etc.
creativity
imagination
inspiration
sleep
coffee
music
bare feet
smiles
hugs
motivation
my health
the health of my children
confidence
strength
painted toes
sea shells
the sunshine
the rain
Boston cream donuts
my pets
candles (PartyLite of course!)
the smell of Christmas
contentment
my free spirit
each new day
every new lesson learned
clean laundry right out of the dryer
"I love you's" (thanks Jamie for telling me every single day.)
a clean house and the productive feeling you get once you are done
gardening
scrapbooking
long walks
long talks
a working computer
pictures
funny movies
breeze on a hot summer day
kindness
thoughtfulness
selflessness
signs from above
dreams
goals
and the power to accomplish both
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Unwritten
I took this Facebook Quiz a while back called Which Song Defines Your Life. Now, normally I do not think these things are very accurate however, sometimes they are right on. Today, I decided to look up the lyrics to the song that came up for me. It is totally me.
All I want to say is that I find it very odd when people think they can live my life better than me. It would be nice if everyone kept their opinions to themselves since they are just opinions. I have seen members of my family and some of my friends over come some stressful situations and come out on top...despite what others thought. I believe in leaving the judgement up to God since he is the one who matters. Everything happens for a reason and not everyone has to like it or agree with it. My advice....hang around those who support you and the decisions you make. Those who have to put in their two sense are not worth your time. You are the only one who can live your life and make the decisions for it. Trust yourself and your angels to guide you in the right direction. We all need to learn life lessons and learn to be strong. I know how hard it is to not try to please everyone...I have been doing that my entire life. We all know that if you are not happy....you cannot make those around you happy. I know that I have no regrets from my past and that my future is going to be wonderful!
"Unwritten"
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh
I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, yeah, yeah
Today I am thankful for:
my friends
support
my strength and courage
life lessons
a day at the beach yesterday
knowing that words are just words and I can allow them to hurt me or go in one ear and out the other (one guess what my choice is..LOL!)
my children
the yellow rose in my garden
the butterfly that was fluttering around in my yard this morning
nature
beautiful signs from above
Makenna having a blast in the sand and the ocean. I love that she is fearless and outdoorsy like me.
Melinda, Marty, Josh and Alyssa (oh, and Toby!)
playing Wii Fit with Alyssa
singing Karaoke with Melinda's mom...so fun!
Diane
knowing that what one may look at as a mistake another will look at as a lesson
All I want to say is that I find it very odd when people think they can live my life better than me. It would be nice if everyone kept their opinions to themselves since they are just opinions. I have seen members of my family and some of my friends over come some stressful situations and come out on top...despite what others thought. I believe in leaving the judgement up to God since he is the one who matters. Everything happens for a reason and not everyone has to like it or agree with it. My advice....hang around those who support you and the decisions you make. Those who have to put in their two sense are not worth your time. You are the only one who can live your life and make the decisions for it. Trust yourself and your angels to guide you in the right direction. We all need to learn life lessons and learn to be strong. I know how hard it is to not try to please everyone...I have been doing that my entire life. We all know that if you are not happy....you cannot make those around you happy. I know that I have no regrets from my past and that my future is going to be wonderful!
"Unwritten"
I am unwritten, can't read my mind, I'm undefined
I'm just beginning, the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, oh, oh
I break tradition, sometimes my tries, are outside the lines
We've been conditioned to not make mistakes, but I can't live that way
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
Staring at the blank page before you
Open up the dirty window
Let the sun illuminate the words that you could not find
Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it
Release your inhibitions
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
Feel the rain on your skin
No one else can feel it for you
Only you can let it in
No one else, no one else
Can speak the words on your lips
Drench yourself in words unspoken
Live your life with arms wide open
Today is where your book begins
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
The rest is still unwritten
Oh, yeah, yeah
Today I am thankful for:
my friends
support
my strength and courage
life lessons
a day at the beach yesterday
knowing that words are just words and I can allow them to hurt me or go in one ear and out the other (one guess what my choice is..LOL!)
my children
the yellow rose in my garden
the butterfly that was fluttering around in my yard this morning
nature
beautiful signs from above
Makenna having a blast in the sand and the ocean. I love that she is fearless and outdoorsy like me.
Melinda, Marty, Josh and Alyssa (oh, and Toby!)
playing Wii Fit with Alyssa
singing Karaoke with Melinda's mom...so fun!
Diane
knowing that what one may look at as a mistake another will look at as a lesson
Thursday, August 20, 2009
Feathers, Rainbows and Clouds
Recalling the article I read 7 Ways Your Angels Communicate With You, I was thinking about the fact that I have only been communicated with through music. Then I thought, I was probably just blind to other means of communication. Clouds, rainbows and feathers are other signs. Although I admit that I never really looked at the clouds, feathers always made me think, "bird" and rainbows just meant to me an ending to a storm. After reading The Secret I know that once we get rid of our beliefs we learn the truth. This week has been a major confirmation to me that my angels are communicating to me through every way possible.
On Tuesday I was getting out of the shower when I saw this 'big fuzzy' floating in the air. I put my hand out and let it land in the palm of my hand. It ended up being a tiny white feather. When I say tiny, I mean like the size of a pencil eraser. It was not a bird feather nor was it from anything I had in my house. It hit me that here was my feather sign. I had just written in my Gratitude Book that I am thankful for the signs from my angels the night before.
Yesterday twice I saw a rainbow. One was on the floor and the other was on the wall. How could I have forgotten that rainbows do not just appear in the sky? Whether it be a prism, or a reflection, rainbows can appear anywhere. In my life now, rainbows are a sign meaning to me that I am where I need to be and that I am making the perfect decisions for my life.
On my way to therapy yesterday, something was telling me to look at the clouds. So, I glanced up to see a cloud right in front of me that was shaped like perfect heart. They say that things happen in threes. I got three signs that I never thought would happen to me. Maybe it is because I am so in tuned to music that I assumed that is how I would continue to see my signs. My therapist reminds me how lucky I am. I tell her that everyone could be just as lucky as me if they would open their mind to the possibilities that are out there. Everyone could have the same experiences as me if they believed. You also cannot be afraid of it. Too many people are too scared of the unknown while others cannot get rid of their beliefs to see what the truth actually is.
Almost daily I speak to my grandfather who has passed. I am not sure why, but he is the one I feel around me the most. We do have a lot in common with our love for the beach and our passion for writing. We also have a lot in common when it comes to the paths our lives had taken. I know that out of all people in my life, he would understand me the most. I know that he would not judge me or criticize me. Maybe this is why he continues to be near me. I am lucky, blessed, whatever word you may choose. Every day I have so many things to be thankful for and more and more continue to flow into my life as my journey continues.
What I am thankful for today:
therapy yesterday
my signs from my angels
Jamie who is moving back this fall!!! WHOO HOO!
Diane (thank you for watching the kids yesterday and allowing me to use your van)
Melinda
my mom
my dad
Jenny who I miss very much!
Shawn
Sally and her class tonight
Buffy
Jen
rainbows
flowers
The Secret
my children
my pets
creativity
laughter
long talks
love
On Tuesday I was getting out of the shower when I saw this 'big fuzzy' floating in the air. I put my hand out and let it land in the palm of my hand. It ended up being a tiny white feather. When I say tiny, I mean like the size of a pencil eraser. It was not a bird feather nor was it from anything I had in my house. It hit me that here was my feather sign. I had just written in my Gratitude Book that I am thankful for the signs from my angels the night before.
Yesterday twice I saw a rainbow. One was on the floor and the other was on the wall. How could I have forgotten that rainbows do not just appear in the sky? Whether it be a prism, or a reflection, rainbows can appear anywhere. In my life now, rainbows are a sign meaning to me that I am where I need to be and that I am making the perfect decisions for my life.
On my way to therapy yesterday, something was telling me to look at the clouds. So, I glanced up to see a cloud right in front of me that was shaped like perfect heart. They say that things happen in threes. I got three signs that I never thought would happen to me. Maybe it is because I am so in tuned to music that I assumed that is how I would continue to see my signs. My therapist reminds me how lucky I am. I tell her that everyone could be just as lucky as me if they would open their mind to the possibilities that are out there. Everyone could have the same experiences as me if they believed. You also cannot be afraid of it. Too many people are too scared of the unknown while others cannot get rid of their beliefs to see what the truth actually is.
Almost daily I speak to my grandfather who has passed. I am not sure why, but he is the one I feel around me the most. We do have a lot in common with our love for the beach and our passion for writing. We also have a lot in common when it comes to the paths our lives had taken. I know that out of all people in my life, he would understand me the most. I know that he would not judge me or criticize me. Maybe this is why he continues to be near me. I am lucky, blessed, whatever word you may choose. Every day I have so many things to be thankful for and more and more continue to flow into my life as my journey continues.
What I am thankful for today:
therapy yesterday
my signs from my angels
Jamie who is moving back this fall!!! WHOO HOO!
Diane (thank you for watching the kids yesterday and allowing me to use your van)
Melinda
my mom
my dad
Jenny who I miss very much!
Shawn
Sally and her class tonight
Buffy
Jen
rainbows
flowers
The Secret
my children
my pets
creativity
laughter
long talks
love
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